A Ray of Light in the Darkness

The cold darkness surrounds me as I stand outside the door, with still one foot inside, I see hope arise anew. I see love and kindness in the stars, even on a dark night. There is a soft joyful hush to the world that draws me out into it. The cool ground comforts my feet as I find my path among the deep green moss. Following in the star light I can just make out the sounds of the pond, the birds singing in their predawn voices, the fish waking and breaking the surface of the clear calm waters. My steps are light not to effect the enchantment of the stillness. The path leads me as I follow around this magical waking place. Slowly my heart softens as the tears flow down my cheeks, the beauty here is charmed and it stirs inside of me. Like a spring flower, I feel awakened from a long cold death, to feel the warming of the day as the sun breaks the darkness in a single shaft of silver golden light. My feet stop in wonder as all I can do is stand and watch the lightness take over. Washing the darkness away, dissolving the night as the rays spread over the pond and trees. I lean forward and close my eyes, spreading out my arms. I wait for faith to take me. I wait for the warmth of love to enfold me. As the ray draw closer to my toes I am all of a sudden frightened and I draw back into myself. I turn and long for the coldness of the cabin. Why is this, when I know what is right in front of me is so good, would I long to be unhappy? I step away from the light, for I need to think. Need to get my head straight, looking from one side of the glen to the other. Bouncing back in forth, my mind is frantic, I must make a choice and it has to be right. Standing tall I straighten my back and face the light. Taking a step towards it, the fear has my legs shaking. But I must not stop now, I spread my arms wide and run. The wall of bright white morning light slams over my body, this light that is so needed in the world, without it there would be nothing. Yet why was I so afraid to be here. My laughter fills the morning air along with the songs of birds and the flight of butterflies as the morning glories awaken afresh, to start another day in paradise. But tonight I will not return to you, or the darkness of the night.