A Woman In Love With A Woman

Another day begins in our lives. I wake up and I look
at you. The wonderful young woman who sleeps by my
side. Your sleeping form is so beautiful to look at. I don't
know how you manage to be so lovely but you are and
remain the most beautiful woman on Earth to me.

I look at myself in the mirror and I see a woman in
her prime but past her youth. Sometimes I worry about
what you see when you look at me. Am I beautiful to
you ?

I worry that you might find another girl and leave me.
Lesbian relationships aren't the most stable, that's for
sure. I am thirty two years old and the woman I consider
the love of my life is ten years my junior. How can I
not worry ?

When people look at me, they see a strong and confident
woman. I know how to deal with the men and women of
the world. I am tough, smart and resilient. I can be ruthless
if I have to be, though I loathe to do it.

There is nothing on Earth that I fear and although I will
never tell you this, if you were to leave me my world would
fall apart. I love you. It scares me. Before I met you, I was
a rogue who chased many women, seduced them and
left them.

Now I fear that the same might happen to me. The one I
love might leave me. I worry so much. I lie next to you
and close my eyes. I don't want to lose you. I'd die for
you in a heartbeat. You don't even have to ask. I'd just do
it.

My insecurities bring tears to my eyes and I feel alone
even though you are here with me. I have always had some
insecurities. I used to think that I don't deserve love so I never
sought it. You showed me that I could love. I don't want to
lose that.

I am still plagued with doubts when you pull me into your
arms and embrace me. Boldly you kiss me. Your body presses
against me. You caress me and begin to make love to me. I
smile as you begin to awaken my body to sensations of great
pleasure. I don't have any doubts anymore. None at all.

The end.