A Year in the Life

So I crawled outside
I felt the sunshine on my face
It was blinding and warm
And I adjusted
Waiting until I could see

The birds I’d been listening to appeared
As did the water flowing
And all the sources of every seductive fragrance

And my timidity slipped away
It had to
I drank from the river to kill my thirst
And ate to loosen the knot in my belly
And still I was not satisfied

Then I saw the creature
The light went further away
Yet grew brighter, longer, and warmer
Indeed I began to sweat
And it would seem
The creature did too

It was different from me
It’s perspiration made it shimmer
With the waves of light
Came wafts of aroma I’ve never known

I trembled

I approached
Afraid and drawn
I wanted to walk away
No
I wanted to never have known
But I must know more
But I must no more

But I approached
And the creature acknowledged
As though it had not known all along
I was there

And the creature bared its teeth
Perhaps a smile

Iridescent eyes
Pulled me
Into the grass
My fingers swimming in the cool topsoil
I felt something
I was now further from my mind
Heeding instinct…soul
And the creature under me
Supine
Lifted its hips

I entered slowly
Colors changed around me
I rocked slowly into the hips
Cool breezes began to move across me
I heaved and the creature sighed
Shadows grew long
As the light and its heat wore down
And turned amber
There was rustling and crackling
And still I moved
Now in some state between the three corners
Of pain, oblivion, and bliss
I drove on
With deliberate vigor
And held the pressure at the end of each slow thrust
I was consumed

And I came
I came
I came like winter

A frost across the hills of flannel

The colors disappeared
With the light

I was tired and ready to digest myself
But I tried to stay outside the den
I tried

And she was a bonfire
Giving off antiheat

And I fell deep

Never quite making it
To the den