Again Alone

bydrdirty8©

I have nowhere to go
No place to be
The only home that I know
Is an empty place
Of Misery

The one that I lost
Was the best one for me
I let her leave
Because of my jealousy

I just could not compete
If that was reality
Why would she want me
If she could have
Someone who wouldn't
Melt from the heat

So alone
I'm turning to stone
The blood in my veins
Just spilled on the ground
And no one's around
But pain I caused
For us both
It's a demon whose face
Has already shown

I thought being grown
Meant making mistakes
But taking the blame
And erasing the pain
And when that seed's sown
Knowing that all that's known
Is a lesson to learn
About how not to be
And what from yourself
Never again to condone

But a lesson that's learned
Can come with a loss
The prize you hold onto
Slips out of your hands because the cost
Is more than you feel you can pay
But at the end of the day
The regret you let creep in your way
Is that you've let someone else become burned

So alone
I'm turning to stone
The blood in my veins
Just spilled on the ground
And no one's around
But pain I caused
For us both
It's a demon whose face
Has already shown
On the road to the unknown

This scar I'll have on my hand
Isn't half as hard as the one I'm bearing inside
From messing up the greatest thing
I ever tried
What maybe just could've been
Is going to be a thought that
Comes with the memory
Of the way this all had to end
And the lie that I will pretend
Doesn't get me down
And make me drown in my sin

So alone, more broken and frozen,
I'm turning to stone
The blood in my veins
Just spilled on the ground
Spots and drops of red
Staining as it surrounds
And no one's around
But pain I caused
For us both
It's a demon whose face
Has already shown

And I know I'm at fault
For being again alone
I can't get how
What was maybe almost love
Was at best just a loan
Recalled and repossessed and cutting
Straight to the bone
And when both wounds heal
I won't have her hand to hold
Because I am again alone

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