Agnostic Hymn

I'm not religious. Prayer does not
Come readily to me, through thoughts
That play out mechanistically.
Should God be merciful to me?

Should I repent (I haven't yet),
On saintly afterlife make bet,
On deathbed swear my fealty—
Could God be merciful to me?

Could any God, demanding faith
Of us, His Faithful, tolerate
Denial of His Deity?
Would God be merciful to me?

Would I then such God recognize.
Disgraced in fortune and men's eyes
As unbeliever, there I'd see
Such God, such mercy, as to Be.