Fading

They arrive in a menacing whirlwind
A whirlwind of painful emotions
They lift me up in their upheaval
Slamming into me over and over again
I would rather feel pain, true physical pain,
than feel these chaotic emotions
They are tearing my head up inside,
claws rending my flesh viciously.

I'm breaking down slowly, I cannot last much longer
I can feel my strength slowly fading away

The stresses of my everyday life are too much
I'm losing the never-ending battle for my sanity
The two anchors that once held me so steady upon this river
Are breaking away, leaving me to sink into darkness
They want nothing to do with me, they want freedom

My heart is torn asunder, confusion running its course
Like a poison threatening to suck the life of me
But I have no one to blame but myself for that idiocy
I made a mistake and it will forever cost me a kitten
And he will have a secret place in my heart for always

This is all too much to bear; I feel the walls closing in
The need to break free imminent, as the whirlwind continues
It's driving me down, digging me so deep into the ground
I'm buried alive, I can't breathe, I can't think, I'm fading

My nightmare is drawing closer, its only days away
A morbid anniversary haunting me very year, dragging me back
Waiting to be relived in my dreams violently overtaking me
I pray that I don't fall asleep, to keep it from claiming me
But here I stand alone, bracing myself for its arrival
There is nothing I can do to stop it, sleep will come eventually

Everything is just to fucking much for me, I can't go on
Goddess help me I'm fading, back into the sweet darkness
Spiraling into it with nothing to hold me or pull me back
Falling into its comforting embrace, for one sole purpose
To stop this whirlwind of emotions that is killing me
Sucking the life out of me, draining me dry, leaving nothing
But a dried husk of what I once was, lost now forever...