Failing

Im closing in,
Im shutting down
Its no ones fault but my own
Im falling, fading, with no one to catch me, not that they don't try
I just ghost through their hands, falling away from those I need
I don't know how to become real again, I don't know how to stop this increasing decent of mine
Im closing in,
Im shutting out,
Im shutting down,
Its no ones fault but my own
Its harder and harder to resist everyday
Resisting increases the need
The need increases the want
The want increase the thought of switching that which is used
Im closing in,
Im shutting out,
Its no ones fault but my own,
Im fading
Im resisting
Im failing
....Its no ones fault but my own....