forbidden desire

In a second split I weigh my options
To say “No” and push him away
To say nothing and taste his tongue.

A thunderstorm crashes through my brain
A familiar situation and no regrets
I pull him close and our lips meet.

Like spheres our tongues roll over each other
My hand through his dark hair
His hand gracing my ass.

The size of lust builds inside of me
This is forbidden and that makes it grow
The way we are watched drives me wet.

The roundish band of gold on his finger
Is visible for all to see
And I of course have none.

People don’t seem to care and neither do I
I taste his tongue deeper
and feel his beard on my lips.

We are close and it needs to stop
I can feel his hardness against my stomach
Pushing into me with urgency.

This is just a measure of lust for me
A measure of alcohol for him
Could he really desire me sober?

The next day all the layers stay intact
If no words are spoken then nothing happened
He has a true love and I only dream.

Like ice trying to meet we speak
Smiles of knowledge, words so vague
I long to hear him say my name.

Each day it is hitting closer to heart
I want his desire, his lips, his tongue
I want to give him my lust.

It is hard, but I remain silent
Only wishing for another chance
Another regret to occur, to be lovers.

Like a hailstorm this comes and goes
A danger that I am familiar with
Two men, one name, one desire.