I Made A Deal With Me

I remember the deal I made with me
When the marriage was over, a new beginning you see
I remember the devious deal, I certainly do
But how did I know it would be so difficult to remain true
I know I wanted to be free from the pain
Of living with a man who barely knew my name
A man who did not care, share or produce
The love, I had witnessed in many others, who bore the fruit
So when I knew it was time to be set free from him
I agreed to never ever love anyone again
I thought it was a deal that I should not make
But the pain, the sorrow just compounded my mistake
I asked me to please just let me be free
And never again would I desire anyone’s company
Just take care that man and to his heart let someone in
I asked one more thing before the journey would begin
A promise for my children who had no say in this
I want them to know true love, hold it, share it, feel it too
My children and my children’s children should live happy, fruitful lives
That is the only condition I ask
Then I will let me be
I will continue this journey through life alone
Because in the end I will be free