I Want My Baby Back

So many years ago
So young
I made a choice
A decision that I have always regretted
Never forgotten
Never forgiven myself for it
Now all I can do is hope
Hope that my daugther
Will forgive a mother's terrible sin
Cos all I wanna do
Is find her
Hold her
In my aching, empty arms and whisper
I want my baby back

I was so young
Stupid and in love
Thought that if I gave up my child
My boyfriend would love me
Instead, I lost it all
His respect
My little girl
Everything that ever meant anything
I know that
I can't go back
None of us ever can
But I can try to make better by finding her
To tell her at last
I want my baby back

Never meant to hurt her
God I swear
I thought that it was for the best
If she lived her life
Without me
Just a kid myself
When I had her
I did't know any better
I did't understand
Later on
I would miss her
Miss her so much
It was almost like a part of me was dying inside
Crying please
I want my baby back

Now my hands shake
And oh how my heart quakes
I have her number
But do I dare call?
Do I dare to disturb her perfect life?
With a mother
She never knew
A mother she might not
Ever want to know
Should I take that step?
I do so long to hear her voice
See the woman that she has become
Please God
Give me the courage that I need tonight
The courage to call and tell her

Darling, it's your mother
Your real mother
And I want my baby back

2008 Ramona Thompson