I Wish

I wish I could just curl up and go to sleep
Leave this cold world without so much as a peep
I wish all the heartache and pain would end
Getting so tired of having to defend
Everyone says be patient, that eventually it will work
But still all I see in the mirror is me, the same old jerk
They ask if I ever contemplate suicide
I say no, but it is yes deep inside
I know you will say those thoughts are wrong
But I have given up trying to be strong
I still act tough and rise above
But it is a charade for the ones I love
Sleeping pills I count every night
But still I take just one, knowing for now it is right
Maybe soon I will close that door
And then finally there will be no more
I wish I could just curl up and go to sleep
Leave this cold world without so much as a peep