i've tried everything

reverberates in the background
and this long rant devoid of any imagery starts now

can you hear it?

it's 12:39 and i can't sleep
distraught memory and pain
cuts so deep

it cuts so deep
can you feel it?

it cuts to the gut
can you feel it?

how can i feel anymore?
how can i feel?
how can i?
how?

pain points like a gun at the heart
and the bullets move in slow motion
like some stupid hollywood cliche

distraught and upset / distraught and upset
distraught and upset and distraught
distraught and alone and confused

i am a loser now.

i am upset over how horribly
you have treated me lately
and all along really

all along / all along
all alone.

i could not sleep last night and i
really dislike you for it

how can you be so cruel?

will true love find you in the end

maybe
but maybe not.

not if you keep treating
people the way you do

not if you don't care for
someone else

not if you don't look
past yourself at the
person standing right
there in front of you

look because it
is right there
in front of you

reach out for an embrace and feel it this time
feel it because it's there
feel it because it's real

it's like i've been blind
after all these years

blind like my eyes
were sewn shut by
the complexities of
what you never could
bring yourself to say

but i can't give up

even though the pain
sits in my gut

how it sits in my gut.
i can't give up.

can you feel it?