Laid Bare

Moody
Brooding
Needy
Wanting to be in this dark place, craving how it feels
Needing someone to share it
To keep me safe here

Someone who knows
Who has been there and knows its pleasures
Someone who wants to be here
The mental connection
Things said without words
Longing to belong, be understood
If only for a while
The ache, the need overwhelms
Clouds my judgment

Keep it a secret
Don’t show anyone
They don’t understand

I feel the calmness of his control
The safety
The acceptance

He knows how to get in
Walks right through the door
Of the place I show no one
I let him in my mind
Show him my soul

The demon is there
The one I struggle to hide from the world
He touches it with just his voice
The demon responds
I can feel it become quiet and calm
As it responds to his wishes

He sates the demon
Calmly puts it back where it belongs
The demon is quiet again
And I am set free

He steps back and locks the door to my hell
The dark place feels wonderful
The colors so bright again
The feeling of calmness
It’s where I belong
But not for long

I hear it
Softly knocking
Trying to reason
Wanted to be sated again

I hear the pacing
The growls becoming louder
It’s claws against the door

I search for the one
The one who knows
The voice the demon understands
I kneel at his feet
Tears streaming down my face
As I beg him…

Please hurt me
Please set me free…