My Pain

How do I express what I'm feeling?
How do I express how worthless you've made me feel?
I can never adequately explain to you what you've done to me
How you destroyed my life

I don't think I can ever be good enough
To live down the shame you put me through
The shame you put us all through
What you did for your own selfish reasons

You didn't care that we were watching
You didn't care that we could hear
As she screamed for you to stop
You didn't care

We were only young children
But you made us grow up too fast
Put us through hell
But what doesn't kill us makes us stronger right?

Well it almost killed me
But you don't care
Why should you?
It's not like I'm important, I'm just your daughter

Everyone knows about you
And I have to deal with it everyday
They hate me because of you
And I can't take it much longer

First came the confusion
Then came the anger
Next came depression
And I have yet to be truly happy

I'm not good enough for anyone to love
I can't trust anyone
All because of what you did when I was five
What you did to her in front of us

The beatings
The rapes
The threats
All while we were watching

I hope I can find someone to help me
To prove me wrong
But I doubt I will
I'm damaged goods now

You don't care about your children
Don't care about anything but yourself
I can't forgive you yet
But maybe some day I'll be able to

I don't love you
I don't hate you
I honestly don't care if your alive or not
But you've ruined me

I don't have a father to give me away
I don't have a mother to talk to
You took all that away
You abandoned us

I hope you're proud of yourself
And how you've destroyed everyone
And I hope that when you die
You get what you deserve