Piracy

For you, with my heart...

Out on the water, the dark ship beckons me
Without the dignity of a formal invitation.
I muster myself and am drawn

Into its black underbelly.
My anxiety is quelled by the sudden
Peace
Tranquility
Fulfillment
Descending upon my soul.
I lower myself down the ladder
Into the silence.

It is as empty as it seems,
no people,
not a soul,
No warmth.
Just trembly silence and the promise of more.

A soft bed of longing covered with hope in front of me;
I lay myself down.

It is what it is, I say to myself
And hope that’s enough.

As I listen to the water and the nothingness
I want it to be so much more.

My hand finds its way down my belly to my open and waiting sex
And I shudder involuntarily.
His voice fills the air and my soul and my body
Though he is invisible,
Beyond my reach,
Beyond my fondest wish.

Soothingly he tells me I am here for a purpose.
That I deserve more than I have.
I hear his words.
Not just with my ears, but with
My heart.

I stroke myself in security.
For him, all that I do is beauty.
There is no wrong…
Only longing and fulfillment
Ebbing and flowing like the water under us

As my pirate brings me to the edge
And then over
In the first release I feel I deserve.

I am beautiful
I am strong
I am loved.