Remembering you on St. Patrick's

This is the only day I can remember now,
You are my father,
Yes it is a curse I will have to live up to.
I can't even remember you,
For that fact, I don't even know you.
When I see myself in the mirror,
I see you.
All the hatred you have left in me comes out,
Only this day.
I won't give you the peace of mind
...of forgetting you.
But you don't deserve to be in my life
Haunting me every single day.
My life is fucked up because of you,
And also its not.
Because of you, I never learned what family really is.
And its good that you're gone,
Didn't want to know that you'd come everynight
To beat my mother, and perhaps even me.
I don't remember your name,
Good, otherwise I would've been in peace living in prison,
Knowing that you are killed,
By me.
Because of you I never got to learn how to be me,
I don't even know who I am,
How should I act? I'm already pretending my life away.
You never taught me how to stand up for myself,
Never show how to slick talk a girl when I get to highschool,
Never taught me sports.
Only a father can teach that.
Because of you,
Some good-hearted motherfucker took pity
For Mom and me...
But I think he took it under her more,
Because you ruined her life by having me
Fucking asshole!
Yea, he grew me up.
Just to let you know and make you crave,
He loves me.
But not as a son, he tries but he knows I know.
I do remember you,
I'll never go.
For you I drink every year,
This Irish Day of celebration,
For me, its the worst day of my life.
I hate myself to know what I am today.
Why today?
Why slap on my fellow Irishmen faces?
Why?
Because I don't know anything about you, but this.
You brought me into this world thru my mother's womb,
Why?
I've been miserable through out my life.
Other my mom, I don't have ONE memorable day
...Of happiness.
Everything seems to be taken away from me.
He has taken care of me and Mom for the last 17 years.
I respect him dearly, but I can't follow his rules.
His customs, his way of life, his demands!
It just rips me away to know what would've happened if,
...if

I can't even cry.
Hey father, can you tell that I'm drunk,
Guess I do have somethings in common with you.
Happy Fucking St. Patrick's Day Father!