Shattered Loneliness

The room is a silent tomb,

Only the machines make

A buzzing to match the one in my brain-

I don't know how much more I can take.

I see you there in your bed,

Dying, alone as you wished to be;

I would give anything to turn back time-

To replace you with me.

I want to be dead,

Just like you.

I don't want to feel

All the pain I go through.

I stare at you with glassy eyes,

As if they aren't my own;

I touch you with hollow hands-

It's time to take you home.

I lay you down in your bed,

And cover your mottled face;

Wrapped up in a mummy's cask,

You disappear without a trace,

To leave only lonliness.

I lie down next to you

And shed a silent tear;

Praying that it won't take long

For your memory to disappear.

Seems cold, I know, to want

To forget a love so true.

But fear not, dear love,

I will soon be there with you.

For the poison you gave me,

Is kept here close to my heart;

And I shall keep my vow and not

Let even death keep us apart.

I swallow the fiery liquid,

And feel the burn run down my throat;

A few minutes more it takes

Until my stomach it does coat.

A little tingle,and then the pain

Slowly drifts away;

For I told your God long ago,

That I will decide my judgement day.