slut

....Slut ... you are...
I the one
who put a ring
on your finger
I the one
who takes care
I the one who cares
I the one to
support you
I the one who
adores your
I the one who
gave you your last name
I the one who
implores you
yet you said "no"
yet you said "I don't regret it"
yes you are worthless
yes you are hurtless
you said yes to many
black and white
though they were there
for just a night
they used you
for their delight
but the man who stayed
the one who see's you
as not just a dame
the man who sees
the lil girl in you
the one who takes care of you
and the child you ignore
the one who grins and bares
I'm the one you
say no too.
don't it seem funny
in an ironic way
that the man you
treat the worst is
the one
who
loves
you.
Just
where is the joke.
is it on you or me
is it nature or is it
human personality
and after today..if I stay
or if I go..whats the difference
none to you...you know your secure
but me..my heart...will be racing about
stuck you see....in the words you spoke
in knowing...
that I was the one...
out of black and white
outta twelve, you see...
that you did finally say
"no" too.
so....I don't know...
if it's wrong or right...
if I say
goodbye...............
or if I stay another night...
I just know
the boy who grew
the man he became
the lover he claimed
he was said "no" too...
and maybe
thats all thats needed
should I say
goodbye to ......
you
and so you think
your high and mighty
standin up for human rights
fuck the kids almighty
for...don't ya know...
they're the ones..
who have to grow...
as zebras with the blessing of what?
two mixed breeds who
didn't know their makings
(one of which...was a slut...)
would effect them!
children with whom
society wouldn't swoon
and more then likely
object them?
do I
the man who loves you
who knows the truth
though I don't agree with them
do I
the man
the one who loves
the one who has stayed
the only one
who hasn't left you
after he's had his pleasure
and soiled your soul
soiled your crotch
do I deserve that
title...that you've given
no. I don't. Yes I have.
no you couldn't. yes you did.
taken the life of others
taken the lives for moments of bliss
oh...you say you paid?
do you think the two you killed
would say the same?
taken the life of those who's paid for
your negligence...yet in your negligence
you continue to judge...
in your negligence you underestimated me...
for i will not stay...
just to be used..
I will not stay just to be jewed..
I will not stay
for any woman that uses me
I will not stay
for those who abuse me
I don't know
if this days our last
I dont' know if I
have strength to last
what I do know....
is I cannot stay...
cause you've shown so well
you don't love me..
cause youve shown to my complete
understanding
it don't matter to you
if I stay or go....
so I gotta say...
not much longer am I here..
good bye my love....
ya had a good thing goin...but
like all things that are too comfortable...
my love you could not endure.
goodbye.
As a matter of fact...
fuck you
and all you believe...
Your a hypocrite...
beyond belief
you stay true...
to none who knows you
your only god...
fuck...who could know...I guess
its...
a matter of who holds ya..
who's new to you
who's wanted by most
to think I left her...
for a one like you
she was more pure
then you could hope to.
and here I am
the greatest fool of all
writing words I know you'll never finish
hoping to an imaginary god
that soon you'll see
something in me
you can hold on to
but I know it's true
it all means nothing to you.....
so please...
dont you know
thats its only you who can say good bye
to me
let me go ... let me free
take these chains from me
and let me free
for a long time come
I shall be hurt
bar none
but there's hope
that I'll learn to love again
learn to love
one who's giving
learn to love
one who's fulfilling
for you and I
were just no good
you and i
were just understood
the past is gone
I've given you my best
and still its gone...
cause on this night...
you said no...
and beyond my grasp
ever I've been told
you said no...
and from now on..
though I may stay with you...
after all...that we've been through
I hate you...I love you..
so human am I
but you know nothing the like
only you...matters to you
at night.
for the last time...
I know you don't love me
I was just a man in your bed
let me go...I'm a dreamer with a soul
let me go...to one who love means something to.