Smashed Delusions

You're growing jealous
You feel amazingly lonely
All the plans
SMASHED!
All your dreams
DEAD!
All the future held
FUCKED!
You felt it inside you
That abandonment
Every time a dream gets close
- POOF!
Heartbreak ebbs from inside
Tears pour like blood
drop by drop
And you lack
She says she doesn't love you
or she can't
you're not sure
the cacophony of humiliations floods your ears
She says she's not looking for love
But said that to you daily
Hourly
In notes at odd moments
You wish you could dance
with her
Sing to her
Touch her again
You tasted ambrosia
You can't go back to
tequila or wine
And beer means nothing to you.
Walk Run Fly
Cry Weep Scream
Talk Fuck Hate
Love Want Ache
She's changed you in ways
You never thought possible
And yet
you'd trade your soul to
go back to the love you had.
... or thought you had.