Solo

I broke 169 eggs
 and before I could
break the last
my tears spilled
over your future
you left me alone
and like steam I hovered in the air
over the puddle of tears waiting
still, I pray that I can forget
that I wont see what you did
when you plead with me
when the orphans swirl down around my feet bubbling over the drain
cause you left me alone
and still I waited
we smile so we dont faint
 from exhaustion and dispair
because all I see is need
and all I feel is need
and the need whips me like a bad dog
cowering on the floor
 licking the palm of your hand
and will I always be alone
just waiting for the blue sky to fall
 and the clouds to rush to my rescue
 i wouldve lain in your lap forever
 and only now you see
when you leave me alone
and I am content broken
lapping at my puddle of tears
no more happy birthday cakes
no more family affairs
no more nuzzles in the night
just loneliness and fear