Standing Alone

I’m lonely today, my heart hurts a tad.
I’m not sure why I’m suddenly sad.
The world seems gray, cold and hollow,
My soul bare and I suddenly swallow.

Alone again, lost and confused.
No longer knowing what path to use.
Pulling one way, seeing the truth.
No longer feeling the joys of my youth.

Taking the step, the one I can’t see.
Giving up on the future of him and me.
Staring into the dark, looking away.
Wondering when this life will finally stray.

Deep in depression, a shattered heart lives.
Trying to gauge when I’ll finally give.
Losing myself, in the arms of a friend.
Though he’s miles away, I like to pretend.

He’s with me now, though I can’t see his face.
His loving arms, are my redeeming grace.
Calling to me, his voice like a rock.
Solid and steady, painful he’s not.

He’s told me to write when I’m feeling blue.
Told me to tell him, what I’m going through.
But the words were cast away once in flight.
Now I know that nothing is right.

So my words lie here, covered in ink.
As my heart lies open, leaving me weak.
Though he is near, and deep in my soul.
My thoughts will continue to make me whole.

For I’ve learned a great lesson from my past
No one is able to cleanse all the glass.
Shattered pieces of dreams gone by
Lay in the air, and blacken the sky.

So I’ll write the words that flow from within.
He’ll only see and continue to grin.
For he’ll neglect to see the words that I write.
Words of pain and rarely delight.