Once again the emptiness engulfs me
and I feel all alone in the world.
Suffering by myself with the hurt and pain
knowing that it never goes away.
Feeling useless, unnecessary, unloved, lonely
a failure to my kids and myself.
Why should I keep trying only to get knocked down
or have my heart stomped on again.
I cry so often and so much I could fill an ocean
but nothing changes, nothing matters, no one cares.
Only one thought over and over in my mind
makes me see an end to all my torment.