The Monster

There is a monster in my bedroom
But it doesn't hide in the closet
It waits until I fall asleep
And then it steals my innocence

I can't go cry to my mommy
Like the other kids do
Because she loves the monster
And I'm supossed to love him too

I try to make the monster leave
But I'm not quite sure how
So I make myself look ugly
Maybe he will leave now

I cut my arms and my legs
And scratch my stomach too
But still he comes as before
I'll think of something new

There is a monster in my bedroom
And he's getting worse and worse
Someone knocked on the door
And then the monster cursed

I can't keep the monster away
So I'll take my life instead
As I take all the pills
Not a single tear I shed

I wake up in the morning
And the monster is still there
I can't go on another day
This is a pain I cannot bear

So I drag the knife across my wrist
And watch the blood spill out
But then she knocks on the door
"I love you Sisi" I hear her shout

If I leave her alone
The monster will take her too
I cannot let that happen
I know what I have to do

I lock her up each night
And keep her close to me
Safe away from the monster
The monster she'll never see