The Seasons of Pain

Drowning in my sorrows.
Always living for tomorrows.
A sharp knife is my best friend.
A bleeding heart that will never mend.

So empty in my soul.
A being never whole.
Love is frozen in the cold.
I've never had someone to hold.

I live in my dreams.
All I have are my fantasies.
Trying to escape reality.
It's always chasing me.

Why should I care?
Into the void I stare.
The pain is all that's real.
Nothing else I can feel.

My life, is there a reason?
Winter is my only season.
Sad I'll never feel the summer of love.
Caught in the freezing snow from above.

There is death in beauty.
Of the blanket of white surrounding me.
So tired, want to lay in it and sleep.
Bury myself in the drifts, deep.

Rain falls from my eyes.
Wet on my cheeks, never dries.
The well comes from my lonely heart.
A long time ago it did start.

Eventually fade into nothingness.
What could save me is a kiss.
From a man whose soul matches mine.
Whose heart that for mine pines.

He is not to be found.
Blood from a gash on my arm falls to the ground.
It's pretty, let's my pain fly away.
Maybe my soul can be finally free today.

Without the constraints of human pain.
My heart no longer played as a game.
Soaring into the oblivion of eternity.
Wonderful to be gone and free.