Virgin Paper

Sitting here alone with my thoughts
The blank page before me uncharted territory
I crave to fill it with a piece of my truest self
To bleed out a chapter of my story

It is not as simple as it seems
To spill my soul onto something as pure as can be
If I etch the words upon the untainted page
I'm setting my darkest demons free

I fear the horror that they can unleash
The way they will make you leave me and run
The way they will change the way you look at me
The way they cock the trigger of the gun

If I steal the virginity from this blank canvas
Will this be a safe place for me to fall?
For if the unblemished page loses it's innocence
Then it means I have bared my all

The uncertainty of what it means for me is frightening
Am I just digging my grave with my pen?
If I allow the ink to stain this page
I'm opening my heart to let more pain in

Perhaps this is the purge I desperately need
To burn the bridge to my past
But it might just be I'm plunging the knife into my heart
To cut out the inflamed horror at last

Let me swallow up my words
As the ink rushes from my veins
I'll choke upon each letter
As I share my deepest pains

The page screams in terror as my words rape it's innocence
As you judge me for the road I've traveled
With pity in your eyes you shun me
And leave me here unraveled

I could cut the words across the paper
If I knew it would keep my secrets safe and sound
But words on paper are like screaming from the mountaintops
So in my heart I'll keep them bound

The page will remain unblemished
Just another sheet in the pack
It's innocence will go untouched
It's virginity still intact