Voyage

Feelings overwhelm me
I had expected oh so much
I feel utter disappointment
When I thought it be so much

I knew you were teasing
When you said certain things to me
But yet…. It still hurt

There are things about you
That drove me nuts
I tried to overlook
But I just couldn’t
All I saw
Was someone lazy
Who just didn’t give a damn

I thought I knew you
But… boy was I wrong
I’m so, so glad to be headed home
The relief brings tears to my eyes

I’ve longed for the green grasses of home
The smell of the beautiful pine trees
Of the crisp autumn air
I’ve longed for the warmth and love of my Family
And of my closest and dearest friends
It’s so true you can’t run
The past will always find you

I know when I land in my hometown
And I make that long walk toward baggage claim
The tears will burn my eyes
My throat clenched tight
Fighting the emotions that beg to be let loose

When I see my Mother’s face
I’ll try hard to keep up my brave face
So that the whole world doesn’t see
I had thought this trip would be so different
I tried to NOT build up my hopes or dreams
I think a break is what I need
Time spent on just me….

Don’t get me wrong
I’d love to have a friend
Someone who like some of the same things as I
But I don’t want to feel used
I don’t want to feel abused
I don’t want to be dominated
But I do want to be needed
I do want to be cared for
But above all I want to be loved

This is my Prayer
This is my Request
This is my One True Wish