you are different from every other guy
that you are honest, honest, honest
that I had a lot of troubles in my marriage
that it always feels good
to hug someone who loves you
that you sure do care about me.
that I am a brilliant writer
a beautiful person
have beautiful shoulders
Happy Birthday Beautiful
You know I am falling in love with you beautiful
You say we knew this wouldn't last
that you saw the sunset change 8 times last night
that I should have seen at least one of those
that I made you feel alive when nothing else did
that I made you feel old and sad.
this has nothing to do with Niagara
with another woman
with the ex-girlfriends who pass through town
with the young friends you can't let go
You say I'm wrong
that your research assistant-cum-"friend"
thought you loved her
thought she would become a mom
thought it was more than a fling
You say, it was playing tennis
To make me feel better, you tell me
you called her your sex toy,
and everyone was cool with that.
You say that I'm jealous
that I'm taking more than I give
that I create a negative balance
that I require energy you don't have
that everyday its something else.
You say that your son won't forget me
that you won't date for a long time
that no one can touch what we had once
You say you're alone
a single parent,
doing just fine,
not looking for anything new
that you wouldn't be ready for something serious
for at least a year,
You say you wish you had somebody with you
cheering you on when you start your new job
You say that's something you really miss,
that person in your corner.
I'm the best you ever had
that I'm "responsive"
and fun and smart
that when you met me
I was a bright confident woman
that I can be that person again
that I seem like I'm getting sadder
that my health is more important than "us."
You say you think I'm keen
that you know I love you
that you wish you were swept away.
that you wish I could live in the moment
that I'm neurotic
and prettier than my picture
that I'm yours.
You mean it all.
And none of it too.
And I am mute,
surrounded by words
I can not speak.