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Dear Sonya,

I suppose I did sound a little incoherent last night. Okay, very incoherent. But I just had quite a shock and I don't have any idea what is going to happen, or even what I want to happen.

You have always been a wonderful sister. You were the one that stood by me after my marriage to Adam collapsed. When I finally realized that I was gay you helped me break the news to the family. Now I really need to unload and perhaps if I write this all down I might come across as a little more intelligent than I did last night on the phone.

You know that I've been seeing Julia off and on for months now. I know that she's a few years older than I am but that's never been a problem. She's an amazing woman, a gifted songwriter, singer and guitarist. One problem, of course, in dating a musician is that she's on the road so much, a gig in this town and another one in the next tomorrow night. We try to keep in touch as much as possible but sometimes it's rough.

Since we haven't made anything formal yet, we both are free to date other women. That's fine. It doesn't bother me when I call her and she's all bubbly in a way that tells me some groupie got lucky last night. In fact, I find it exciting that I'm with someone in such demand. But for both of us it's always one-nighters and move on and then back to each other. We've even discussed buying a house and moving in together. Then it will be, would be, might be, permanent. Monogamous. Just us. But now...

It was Friday night. Julia was touring way up the coast, a thousand miles from here. Rather than sit around my apartment I went over to Diane Gilmont's party. You met Diane when you visited a few months ago. She's straight but enjoys filling her place with all sorts of people. "The more the merrier," she says and then usually ads something about the more varied the better too. Her place is down at the beach and it's high summer so the dress is pretty informal.

I was sipping a nice Scotch, poured from a bottle that I brought myself, and fending off the attentions of a couple of guys who had already been drinking too much of whatever they have been into. I was flattered but sometimes I wonder if I should be wearing a sign around my neck that says "Lesbian". It might avoid scenes. I like guys; I enjoy talking to them and even hanging out with my male friends. I just don't want to sleep with them.

Then there she was. My God Sally. Six feet of tanned pony-tailed blonde athlete. A pair of tight black shorts and a yellow top baring a mid-riff that was flat and firm. And legs. Oh my GOD, what legs. Long and full, muscular but as shapely as any I've ever seen. Bare footed, she was leaning in a doorway with one foot planted firmly on the floor. The other leg was bent at the knee and the curled toes of that foot brushed the rug.

She certainly made my toes curl with the smile she gave me. Of course she was surrounded by every other guy at the party and who could blame them? I suspect that I was staring just as much as any male was. All I could hope was that maybe my tongue wasn't hanging out. Or if it was I hoped that it was hanging out a lot further than anyone else's!

I tried to calm myself down. After all, I hadn't come here looking. Diane tends to invite me as the token lesbian after all. Usually the other women here are as straight as she is. Of course some of them aren't as straight as they think. Do you remember that asshole John Archibald who ranted and raved about "dykes being the ruin of all that is good and pure."? True to his pious bullshit his wife caught him dicking some visiting redhead one night. Of course I didn't find that out until after she had cornered me in a nearby bedroom and showed me that for the spouse of such a gay hater she could lick pussy with the best I've ever seen.

Regardless of memories like that and a series of fantasies that rushed through my mind as I stared at the gorgeous blonde I contented myself with returning her smile. No winks, no crooked fingers, no attempt to make a pass either subtle or overt. I was sure the young woman had seen them all. Hell, it looked like she was the subject of a half-dozen attempts even as I turned away and headed for the back porch. All the smoke was clogging my lungs. I did make a stop in the kitchen to freshen the drink I had absently gulped down when I had first seen what I knew would be the object of more than one late night dream.

I closed the French doors behind me and stood outside alone. The view from Diane's place is gorgeous. Back behind the house I could see the lights of the city twinkling and the darkness of the mountains rising beyond those lights. I relaxed and let my mind just float wherever it wanted to go, the soft crashing of the waves down on the beach below providing a soothing rhythm. I was contented enough to groan when I heard the door behind me open.

"Goodness," came a soft voice. "Am I disturbing you?"

I turned around. It was her. She had closed the door behind her and was leaning back against it. The look on her face was calm but I thought I could see a bit of sparkle in her eyes. Maybe that's why I said just what I was thinking rather than rephrase it into some less obvious words.

"You disturbed me the moment I saw you."

I could have bit my tongue. "Nice going Caroline. Like being subtle much?" But then I saw the smile spread across her face and I realized that I may have hit a home run on a pitch three feet outside the strike zone.

"I thought you weren't interested," she said. "I had thought 'Great, the only other lesbian at this party and she just smiled and walked away'."

My mouth must have hung open because she laughed. "Couldn't you tell I was looking for someone to rescue me? I love Diane to death but she does insist on attempting to surround me with nice looking guys in the hopes that one of them will somehow spark my interest."

I had to laugh along with her. "She does the same thing to me. Not that she's being judgmental, I think, she just can't seem to wrap her mind around the fact that guys simply don't interest me, not the way she hopes anyway."

With that we settled down and got to know each other a bit. I found out her name is Lindsey. She's twenty three, just about eight years younger than me, just about the same span between Julia and me. I figured she was a lifeguard or maybe a beach volleyball player or something like that. Turned out she's a physics major at the University here. That dynamite body does come from sports though. She runs track and wonder of wonders, like me she loves softball.

It was during a pretty animated discussion of that sport that I kissed her. Or she kissed me, I'm not sure which. All I can recall is that as we talked we had moved closer and closer together. Our fingers were brushing back and forth against each other. It could have been me who started it; when I first felt that firm thigh touch mine. I was mighty glad I had worn shorts myself when that happened.

Whoever kissed who didn't matter. Once it started we both put some enthusiasm into it. Her mouth tasted like a fresh apple and I was dying to find out what the rest of her tasted like when we finally came up for air.

"My place or yours?" I asked, trying to be cosmopolitan. Somehow this young beauty reduced me, if not to babbling incoherency, at least to a direct comments approach.

"What's wrong with right here?" she smiled and since I couldn't think of any reason why anything was wrong with "right here" I kissed her and we came into each other's arms. Those arms of hers were every bit as strong as the rest of her appeared to be. I loved the feel of them around me. This time our kisses started out slow, then built, growing from little gentle brushes of lips to full blown, all, out my-god-I-want-you-right-NOW kisses.

I pulled off that brief yellow top and she helped me shed my own loose t-shirt. Her breasts were small but so firm and they felt wonderful against my own bare orbs. I hadn't bothered with a bra and she certainly had no way to even hide one under that top. I lowered my head to find out if those pink nipples were as delicious as they appeared. They were and I devoured them both.

I enjoyed her breasts but what I had been dreaming of since the moment I had seen her was just before me as my knees buckled a bit. Her firm flat stomach was as tight under the touch of my lips as the taut cover of a drum. I kissed and licked there, paying particular attention to her navel. Then I was fully on my knees and my hands were exploring the wondrous curves of those magnificent legs.

Her tight skimpy black shorts tied in the front with a little red bow in the string that held them in place. I couldn't resist. Grinning up at her I caught one end of the string in my teeth and pulled. It came loose and the top of those shorts gaped open. My fingers danced up the side of her legs and caught the hem. I drew the black material down her legs. I did it slow, my fingertips enjoying every inch of her skin that they brushed over all the way down to her ankles and feet as I helped her step out of them. Then I did a little wiggle on the floor to get rid of my own shorts and panties.

I just knelt there for a moment. After all, its not every day you get to admire the chiseled body of a goddess. The rest of my hesitation was that I wanted to be kissing and touching her everywhere and I couldn't decide where to start. I wanted to lick up every inch of those incredible legs. I wanted to bury my face in that tight ass. Then she touched my shoulder with a little push and my mouth covered the wet golden curls between her legs even as she spread them for me.

I wanted to be subtle. I wanted to slowly arouse her and bring her almost to orgasm again and again before I finally let her fall over the edge. Those were lovely thoughts. They lasted about two seconds. Once my tongue touched her and tasted her I simply went wild. I locked my mouth on her and drove my tongue through her curls, entering her in one motion. I licked her silky slick inner walls, my tongue darting in and out of her, attempting to reach inside of her deep enough to lick the bottom of her stomach. I sucked her labia, nibbled them, drank the woman's nectar that was already flowing from her.

While I acted like a wanton teenager licking her first pussy my hands were anything but idle. I keep my nails short, after all, I work with my hands and long nails would only be in the way. But there was enough of them to do what I wanted. I started on her back, letting them explore there. They traced the bumps of her spine and then brushed over those firm ass cheeks. I circled them rather than following my desire to grab them and never let them go. Instead I traced the creases where they flowed into her thighs and then danced down the back of those incredible legs. Goosebumps seemed to spring up under my touch. I knew darn well they were popping up all over my own body.

I felt Lindsey's body quivering. Her hands still rode on my shoulders. I could feel them tensing, feel her struggle to not grab me and slam my face into her. Her hips were starting to buck. My tongue found her clit and she broke first, tightening her grip and riding my face with her pussy.

Now I gave in to my want. My fingers seized her ass, digging into the muscular cheeks, feeling them quiver. I yanked her forward onto my open mouth. I lashed her clit furiously with my tongue. I felt it throb, I felt her arch and I felt her entire body shake as a flood poured from her.

When her quivers had slowed I sat back on my legs and smiled up at her. It was funny. here I was on my knees and yet I felt as though I was the one in complete control of the situation. She sagged against the door, one hand still resting on my shoulder.

"Oh GOD," she whispered, her eyes closed. They opened, sparkling at me. Somehow she knew, just knew, what I wanted next. She turned, her torso pressed against the doors. She laid her cheek on the wood, closed her eyes and then stood up on her tiptoes.

For what seemed an eternity I just knelt there. I watched the flexing of her leg muscles, the tightening of that marvelous ass. She knew what I wanted And she displayed herself to perfection. I scooted forward and my hair fell over her legs as I crouched down and began to kiss her left leg. I started just above the ankle, running my tongue slowly up the stretched calf. Even as I did, even as my heart hammered in my chest at my exploration, I felt a slight sadness that I could not start with her toes. But they were holding her up after all.

I worked up the left leg to her knee, suckling gently on the soft spot there. I felt her quiver and moan but she remained firmly in her stretched up position. I went down again and repeated the motions on her right leg. Her skin was smooth and as firm as I knew it would be. I could feel the tight muscles barely flexing as she strove to remain still for me.

My arms were around her legs then, my breasts pressing against her skin. My nipples were so hard I thought they would leave scratches on her skin as I darted back and forth from one thigh to the other. I stretched up, shaking and holding myself to her as I neared the prize I was working up for. My tongue ran along the creases where her thighs became her ass and then I was there.

I showered kisses over the cheeks, licking and sucking on each one where a dimple formed. I seized them, gripping them as hard as anything I have ever taken anything and nearly wrenched them open to expose the tightness of her rosebud. It winked at me, called to me. I kissed it and my tongue jammed against the ring.

Before I could go any farther there were voices in the corridor and the doors rattled as someone tried to open them. Lindsey's body held firm against the attempt. I froze in place. A voice muttered something about a key and the footsteps withdrew.

I rose as Lindsey turned. We kissed, deeply and then snatched up our clothing. We both hopped around, getting into our shorts and tops while still touching each other.

The footsteps were coming back. She looked at me.

"Okay, NOW, your place or mine?"

I gave her my address and we jumped over the railing into the soft sand even as the doors opened. We circled back to the front door and crept back in separately just long enough to grab our pocketbooks, keys and shoes. Then we were off.

She pulled into the parking lot of my apartment complex right behind me. I was still shaking, so much so I dropped the door key twice before finally getting it open long enough for us to get inside. I slammed the door behind us and we tore each other's clothes off.

We spent the rest of the weekend together. I finished my exploration of every inch of her body and she returned the favor more than once. She even stayed until Monday morning, leaving herself just enough time to get to her place and change before going to class.

We've already made a date for next weekend. For the whole weekend. We're planning to go up the coast together. I'm smitten and it seems that she is too. Julia won't be back for a couple more weeks. We've talked on the phone and once on web cam. I can't figure out what I feel for her now. The closeness is still there but it seems to be drowned under an overwhelming tide caused by memories of a tall blonde haired girl.

I've always been a planner but I have no idea what to plan now. I guess I have two weeks to determine if this is simply a crush or is Lindsey the woman I've been dreaming about ever since I realized that I was attracted to women and not men. I mean Sally we didn't just have sex. We talked. We watched an old movie together. We snuggled and even talked politics and art.

Even now as I type these words on the computer I can see her smile and yes, her legs and all the rest of her as well. My mouth gets dry and something else gets wet. I have no clue what I'm going to do, except that I can barely wait for the week to pass to start that drive up the coastal highway with her.

I guess we'll see. Thanks for letting me vent.

Much love to you and your family and thanks from your wildly confused sister,

Caroline

(The End)