I Treat Myself

When you are gone, sometimes the urge to play becomes overwhelming. Many times I just grab a vibrator and put it on my clit until I have a sub-standard orgasm that takes the edge off. If I really need to get off, I might read some erotica or looks at some porn; something to make my pussy wet. I hold off and try to wait until I cannot wait any longer; then get the vibe and make myself cum a few times. I might wait a few minutes and then do it again. After 4-6 orgasms I feel better, but not completely relaxed. This is what I do when I treat myself to the best orgasm ever.

First I like to read some dirty stories; stories with domination and control. Or, I might find some pictures on the internet; pictures of ladies eating pussy always get me ready. I might find something on pay-per-view or pull out some of our old DVD's. I love watching people fuck. I fantasize that I am there too. I usually start massaging my breasts or pulling and twisting my nipples. The minor pain on my nipples always makes my cunt super wet. I continue getting myself aroused by making a fantasy story in my head. I am always being dominated, tortured, controlled, or punished for disobedience. You call me a slut and spank my pussy. Then you shove me to the ground by my face and force me to suck your cock. You tell me that I am your whore and you will use me whenever you want. I swallow your cum because you tell me to. I imagine your hands around my throat while you fuck me wildly.

Now that I am excited and my clit is swollen, I need to take a hot bath and shave my pussy for the entertainment. I soap up my tits and twist my nipples. It feels so good. When I slide my fingers between my legs, I can feel the hot juice of my pussy waiting to help me get off. I carefully shave my cunt, leaving a thin trail because you don't like it completely bald. I try to get everything smooth so when your tongue slides across me I can feel your moustache between my lips. I rub circles around my engorged clit. I could make myself cum in seconds; but I don't. I am trying to torture myself.

Sometimes I put clothespins on my nipples. It makes me cry and cum at the same instant. It hurts, but it makes my pussy jerk and gush everywhere. No clothespins today. I have other plans for myself. I need release. I'm clean and smooth; ready for sex. You're not here, so I have to do the next best thing.

I am naked on the floor. I get my dildo and vibrator and get on my knees. I squat onto the dildo and begin to ride it up and down. I lean back and put the vibrator to my clit. Thrusting my hips back and forth, I fuck myself with that big dong and think about you with your hard cock inside my tight pussy. The vibrator sends me over the edge and I remove it for a second and prevent my orgasm from peaking. I slow my pace until I can control myself and then continue pleasuring myself and my urgent need to cum.

I wish I could feel you inside me right now or feel your hands on my body. I need you to give me relief from this building pressure in my body. Your tongue on my body is just a daydream right now. I have a primal need to cum. Nothing else matters right now.

I try to tease myself with a few close calls, but I don't have the will-power to deny my release. I hit the peak of my orgasm, I hold my breath and wait for the high sensation that only this can bring. I feel my pussy contract, my stomach twitch and then I feel the gush of warmth leave my body—sometimes squirting forward; sometimes pouring down. I release my breath and wait for the fuzziness to subside.

It takes me a few minutes to get up. My legs feel rubbery; my hamstrings are sore from thrusting. When I stand I get a head-rush because the oxygen and blood have started circulating again. The relaxation I desired is finally here. I wish you had been here to see me; to see what I do when I can't feel you. So often I have to fantasize about you doing wicked things to me so I can rest. I treat myself when you can't be here to torture me.