Indecent Desires Ch. 2

Julia had slept in a motel the night that she left, the next morning she got up and drove most of the day. She did not know where she was going but felt she would know her destination when she arrived. It was now the early afternoon and she was clearly in the middle of the countryside. Signs of rural life were all around her as she continued to drive down that highway. She would see the odd farm and livestock dotting the landscape of the tranquil scene.

She had not slept well last night, not that she slept well recently anyway so why should last night be any different. She momentarily thought about turning around, that it was a mistake to be taking this time out from her girls. She remembered however all the reasons why she left and knew that she could not return until she had found an answer to her dilemma. She had come so dangerously close to giving in to something she knew that she could never forgive herself for. She was not abandoning her children; it was simply a strategic retreat to regroup herself so she could be a better parent.

Julia was now hungry and decided to stop for a bite to eat at the next town she passed by. Within a short while a truck stop came up that seemed good enough so she stopped. As she entered the small greasy spoon it seemed to be exactly as she expected, cozy, clean with old fixtures. Booths lined the outside walls and the counter / kitchen was opposite the main door. There were a few tables scattered in the center of the diner. All in all it was nothing to write home about but at least the food looked good and the other patrons were not gagging.

Julia sat down at the counter and looked over the menu. In a short while the waitress came up to take her order and Julia responded and ordered without looking up at the waitress. At this point she didn't care what she ate she just wanted food. She felt so emotionally drained that everything in life had lost its flavor, so why should the food be any different. The place was relatively deserted and Julia was alone at the counter. The only people there were the waitress, the cook and a handful of other patrons. So Julia wasn't too surprised when the waitress came over and started a conversation with her.

"Where you headed?" The waitress asked her standard opening line as she wiped the counter near her new customer.

"I'm not sure." Julia replied now looking up at the waitress for the first time since she sat down.

Julia noted that she was a pretty young lady and momentarily glanced over her. Her uniform fit her fine and while it was not the most flattering outfit, you could see that she was slender and petite. Her hourglass figure was apparent even though she was smaller that most people. She stood just over five feet tall and was pretty and well proportioned just the same. The long black hair that her native heritage had given her flowed far down her back even though it was pulled back in a ponytail. Her dark skin was without blemish and she had a healthy glow about her. Judging from her looks Julia guessed that she was in her late twenty's. The young lady was not plain looking, nor was she gorgeous, she was pretty and pleasing to the eye.

"Well, it's kind of hard to know when you've arrived if you don't know where you're going." The waitress replied with a questioning look.

"I guess so but it's also hard to get lost, cause every road is the right road." Julia chuckled back.

"True." The waitress chuckled in agreement. "If you don't mind my asking, what are you doing out here, if you don't know where you're going?" The waitress inquired with a warm, inviting and puzzled smile. For a moment Julia was lost in the big beautiful brown eyes of the waitress and broke into a smile of her own. She seemed friendly enough and quite disarming, Julia found herself at ease around her.

"I guess I needed some space, y'know a quiet place to sort through some stuff. I guess the exact place doesn't matter as long as I can think straight." Julia replied, opening up just a little bit, still cautious about what she shared and just how much to open up.

"Well in that case, you came to the right place." The waitress said as she stood up strait and proudly smacked the counter. "My uncle runs a small lakefront resort near here. There is a bunch of cabins that he rents out, all of which are on the lake and a few are more secluded than the rest. It might be just what you're looking for, or at least worth checking out." The waitress smiled and looked away as she returned to wiping the counter but was watching intently for Julia's reaction out of the corner of her eye.

"It sounds like just what I need." Julia smiled back at the waitress. She truly had nowhere else to go and was in no hurry to get anywhere particular; at least it would be worth checking out. "Thanks . . . I never caught your name." Julia said slightly embarrassed.

"Lisa." The waitress said with a smile and a nod.

"Nice to meet you Lisa, I'm Julia." She responded and stretched out her hand.

"Nice to meet you Julia." Lisa replied as she shook Julia's hand.

The two continued chatting as Julia finished her late lunch. At the end of their conversation there was a familiarity between them. Julia could not explain it but she felt like she and Lisa had been friends for years even though they had only just met. Once Julia had directions to the resort she was off in search of the peace and quiet she so desperately needed.

The short drive was quiet and uneventful, although near the end she thought she had been given the wrong directions. The road wound down and thick bush closed in on either side and it looked as though nothing was down this road. Just as she was about to turn back she rounded a bend in the dirt road and arrived at an idyllic scene. She pulled up in front of the main building, got out and took a deep breath of the fresh rustic air.

Julia looked around and saw that even though it was a small lake the cabins were well spread out with plenty of space between them. The cabins themselves seemed to be small and cozy in size but appeared to be sturdy enough. She felt more at ease already and somehow knew she had come to the right place, she had indeed arrived at her destination.

Julia walked into the resort office and prepared to check in. She walked up to the counter in the small office and rang the small bell. Before long a tall older native man stood on the other side of the counter from her. He looked her over briefly, nodded to himself and then spoke first.

"You must be Julia. Lisa called and told me you were coming." He said calmly and slowly. "She told me to take good care of you. I have just the place for you, quiet and peaceful." He said with quiet confidence. His manner was deliberate and not rushed. There was a peace that emanated from him like a calming aura. It was hard to put a finger on the exact source but something about him was as soothing as the lake itself.

"Thank you, it sounds great." Julia said with a pleasant smile.

"How long will you be staying?" The tall man asked.

"A week I guess, I'm not sure." Julia said with a calm tone.

Once Julia had checked in, she soon found herself driving on the road that ringed the lake behind the cabins. Carefully she read the numbers on the cabins until she arrived at the right cabin. She grabbed her bags and headed into the cozy place.

As she entered the cabin she looked around at her home away from home for the next week. On the left was the fireplace with a sofa and chairs around it. Straight ahead from where she stood was the dinner table. The kitchen was next to the table; two small bedrooms were along the right side of the cabin. To her immediate right were the hall closet and then the modest bathroom. The whole place was small, rustic plainly decorated, however there was a homey feel that was calming and serene.

As Julia unpacked her bags into the dresser provided. She looked around and the bedroom and realized that finally she was alone. Finally she had arrived at her sanctuary from the world and finally she could let her guard down. The quiet echo of the cabin reminded her that her girls were not there. As she thought of her girls and of what had transpired a wave of emotion washed over her. Julia collapsed on the bed and sobbed uncontrollably, she wept openly for the first time in a long time.

Julia cried for what felt like hours as memories of Laura and Donna came back to her. Scenes from the past flashed across her mind as she wept on that bed. She saw that intimate embrace with Laura that started it all. She saw Laura eating her pussy as she begged her daughter to do so. She saw Donna play with herself as she invited her mother to join her. She felt Laura's sensual massage as well as the hot tender flesh of the masseuse pressed up against her. She also remembered the moment when she broke and gave in to her daughters at least in her mind. It was that memory that scared her now as it did then.

As each memory played across her mind the sensations she felt came back to her. She could feel a tender pair of lips kissing and licking her pussy. She could almost smell Donna's excited pussy fragrance on the air. She felt the warm skin of Laura pressed against her back as a pair of hands expertly massaged her shoulders. The more she remembered, the hotter she got. The hotter she got, the more she realized that she could not deny how much all of it turned her on. She felt the shame as she started to come to grips with her now intense lust for her daughters. That shame and the frustration she felt was more than enough to drive the tears out of her and she cried with more intensity.

Julia looked up around her at the dark room after coming to her senses some time later. She was all cried out by now and dusk was setting in quick. She had indeed cried for hours and now she was emotionally drained, there was not a tear left in her body. She pulled her weary body up and started to walk about the small cabin, her mind still mired in thought. It was then that she realized that she was overdressed to truly be comfortable. She removed her clothes and continued her pondering while wandering about more comfortably in the nude.

She had to accept that she wanted her daughters as much as they wanted her. She was ashamed to admit it even to herself and could not even say the words out loud to herself. She had always told herself that it was not the way she truly felt and that it was just the heat of the moment and nothing more. She clung to that thought and hoped that if she avoided any stimuli long enough that it would all go away. After the massage yesterday she knew different and at the time she knew it but could not admit it. She now knew that it was not that simple as passing passion, she knew now that her desire was genuine. She was mortified to know that she was a mother who lusted after her daughter's young bodies.

Her mind was still clouded in this muddle of self-loathing and shame that she was not thinking straight. Julia heard a knock at the door and simply answered it not giving a thought to what she was not wearing. A momentarily stunned Lisa stood in the door not knowing what to say but couldn't help but admire Julia's tall, nude form.

Lisa was shocked; she had dropped by to see how Julia was doing and if she wanted some company. Certainly she had not expected to see her answer the door without a stitch of clothing on! Lisa could most easily see everything Julia had to offer. Lisa had never known any woman to so boldly display her body, thrusting it in the face of others. Never before had Lisa viewed any woman's body with such curiosity and intrigue. She had seen nude women before, in change rooms and so forth but somehow this was different. Although she barely knew her, already she felt a close to this woman and perhaps that was what made this different, Lisa couldn't say exactly. She started to admire the obviously beautiful body standing before her and found that she couldn't stop. It disturbed her that she could not take her eyes off the body of this older woman she had met only that day.

Her eyes roamed all over Julia's body and drank in every curve and detail. Lisa's eyes admired the large round, firm breasts that hung proudly from her new friend's chest and felt slightly jealous. Try as she might she was unable to stop her eyes from traveling down the slender body standing in the doorway. She drew a quick breath as she saw the tender, fluffy carpet of pubic hair that framed and hid Julia's pussy. Fear and shame shot threw her, Lisa knew she should not be looking her over like she was.

She glanced up into the eyes of this nude beauty and Lisa did not see the scorn, disgust or shame she expected. Rather she saw an inviting smile of a friend apparently unaware of the quick tour of her body. Lisa quietly sighed her relief of not being caught, cleared her throat and prepared to speak.

"I just dropped by to see how you were doing, if you got settled alright." Lisa said with a slightly puzzled look on her face still stealing glances at Julia's body.

"I'm fine, there's not much to unpack, won't you come in." Julia warmly smiled as she motioned for Lisa to come inside.

With a nervous smile Lisa stepped inside and heard the door close behind her. Julia hung her coat up in the closet and walked toward the kitchen to see what she had to offer her guest.

"What do you think of the cabin?" Lisa asked trying to make some conversation as she followed Julia to toward the kitchen.

"It's great, I'm not sure what there is, I didn't bring any groceries with me to be honest. But well see what we have shall we?" Julia smiled playfully as she started looking through cupboards.

"Did I catch you in the shower or something?" Lisa asked hesitantly obviously dropping her eyes from Julia's face to her breasts.

"Huh, no why do you . . ." Julia replied not knowing where that odd question came from when she realized that she was still nude. "Oh sorry, no you didn't catch me at a bad time, I'm just more comfortable in the nude." Julia explained now reading Lisa's face for a reaction. "If it makes you uncomfortable I could throw something on?" She asked pointing toward the bedroom.

"Oh that's alright, I was just wondering is all." Lisa replied nonchalantly, trying to hide the fact that she really didn't feel that easy about the situation but she didn't want to make herself a nuisance. The movement of Julia's shapely ass momentarily hypnotized Lisa as the host checked the cupboards for something to serve. This also made Lisa more uncomfortable with herself than anything. She did not know why she was so enthralled with this woman's body.

"Jackpot!" Julia cried out and turned around to show the box of assorted herbal teas she found. "Now all we need is this and this." She said while excitedly pulling out a kettle and some mugs. "Come pick your tea." Julia motioned to Lisa to come near and Lisa did.

In no time they were sitting on the couch sipping their teas and chatting like old school friends. They chatted about life in general and a little bit about their lives. Generally they were enjoying each other's company and becoming fast friends. It was just what Julia needed, for the moment she had forgotten all about the problem with her girls. She liked Lisa; they seemed to fit well together and got along great. Even though they had just met Julia felt close to her, at ease around her. It was after the second cup of tea that Julia made an off hand suggestion that was on the surface an innocent observation.

"Why don't you make yourself more comfortable?" Julia called out from the kitchen as she was boiling the water for the next cups of tea. Her new friend seemed a little uptight and Julia thought that perhaps she needed to relax a bit. The best way Julia knew to relax was to be nude around the house; to her there was nothing more liberating or more soothing.

"What do you mean?" Lisa replied with a puzzled look on her face not certain of what Julia meant.

"Take your clothes off silly. Trust me it is quite relaxing and liberating believe me." Julia said assuringly.

"I don't know, I couldn't." Lisa replied with wide eyes shaking her head. She was obviously not impressed by the idea that did scare her more than a bit.

"Don't be silly, it's just us girls. Why not?" Julia said with a 'don't be silly' look on her face as she unplugged the kettle. Julia could not see any logical reason why not to.

It was then just as she was about to turn down the playful insistence of her friend when Lisa had an interesting notion of her own. She figured that a nicer way to get out of doing something that she was not at all prepared to do was to add a ridiculous condition. The condition she decided to add was to pry into the precise reason of why Julia was up here. Lisa was curious about what could cause a woman to leave her kids at home and seek refuge in such an unplanned hurry. The woman had made no plans and no reservations of any kind! This did raise her curiosity but she knew that Julia was not ready to talk about it so it was an easy way to get out of taking her clothes off. Lisa was always a modest person and the thought of traipsing around nude in front of anyone else was ludicrous. She felt it was her only polite option, her only way out without risking offending her host.

"I'll tell you what, I'll 'get comfortable' as you say and take my clothes off if you agree to tell me just why you are here. You know tell me the real reason you needed this solitude." Lisa smiled in a forced playful smile trying to hide her nervousness. Her heart was beating a mile a minute and it was in up in her throat as she awaited Julia's response. It wasn't until that exact moment that she pondered the possibility that Julia might actually say yes. Her fate was in Julia's hands as it seemed and this was most unsettling. Almost as unsettling as the brazen way she was still staring at Julia's most intimate parts and liking what she saw.

Julia was stunned and taken aback by the nerve of this new friend. This practical stranger just demanded to know her most intimate secret, the most private thing she barely could admit to herself. Julia was scared, angry, frustrated and just a little tempted. This young stranger had no idea the magnitude of the secret she was asking Julia to bear. However the thought of finally being able to talk to someone about it was a welcome thought. For so long now she had languished in silence, not having anyone to vent to, to hear her cries and to simply listen. That thought alone was the most tempting and almost made the risk worth taking.

Julia paused and looked over at her guest and admired the warm smile coming back at her. This young woman seemed genuine in her concern and did not appear to be judgmental. Anything could happen when she revealed her secret though and she knew it. Would this young lady understand or would she fly off the handle? Would she help her or cause trouble? Could she trust this near perfect stranger?

"Well, what do you say?" Lisa said as playfully as she could, trying to hide the heart throbbing in her throat.

She was dying for some kind of answer. The more she watched the quiet Julia mindlessly stirring the cups of tea the more dark thoughts entered her mind. Lisa feared that she had overstepped her boundaries and gone too far. Clearly whatever it was that had driven her here was something considerable and she seemed not ready to share it just yet. Lisa searched for some way to let her friend down easy, some way to let both of them off the hook. Lisa was about to speak when Julia beat her to it.

"Do you really want to know?" Julia asked tentatively, still unsure if it was a good idea. She decided that she needed to talk to someone about it or she would drive herself around the bend. She knew that if things went poorly she would not have to ever see Lisa again.