Love After DarknessbyLadynStFreknBed©
Sarah thoroughly cleaned her house to prepare for her guest. She had worked on her house for the last several weeks. She had a new sense of pride in her home and her appearance. That pride had previously been taken from her by her recent bout of depression. The darkness had lifted and she worked to reclaim her life.
The most devastating loss that she suffered due to the depression was that of her boyfriend. Jon had been so emotionally supportive during her time of need. He would send her encouraging text messages almost every day while she was in treatment. Unfortunately, in a moment of despair, Sarah broke up with Jon. She didn't do this because of any wrong on his part. She loved Jon with all her heart. It hurt her that he was exposed to the hell of the depression. In her depression, she thought he would be better off without her. The break up had two effects in her mind. It saved Jon from having to deal with her and her depression, and it was a self-inflicted punishment. Even as she said the words, she knew that part of the reason was to hurt herself, much like someone who is suicidal might use a razorblade.
Jon and Sarah tried to mend their relationship after the depression had started to subside. But, Sarah was not completely well yet. Jon seemed withdrawn almost as if he was afraid it would happen again. Things weren't the same.
Time passed and Sarah grew. Her self-esteem and resiliency had returned. She wanted more than anything to make things right with Jon. He was the most special person she had ever met. She could understand his reluctance to try again. She wished they had met after she was healthy instead of during the depression.
They continued to talk every day. They often talked for hours. Sarah was reassured that there had to be some emotional connection between them. She knew he cared about her. But, she also knew that he did not love her. She would have to prove herself to him and give him the chance to trust her. There can't be love without trust.
Some nights, she cried. She knew she was to blame for the distance between them. She just wished she could do something, anything to make it up to him. After some time had passed, Jon could see that she had recovered from the depression. He told her that he wanted to see her.
Sarah was so happy that she cried when he told her that he wanted to see her. The day had finally arrived when she could at least have a chance of restoring their relationship. She had never stopped loving him. She also felt that he must love her more than he would admit.
Sarah finished straightening up her bedroom. She checked that the candles were in place. She had already made sure that she had some of his favorite things for him. These were little things: his favorite iced tea, his favorite snack, and she wore his favorite perfume. She would have normally done those things for him. She always liked to show that she cared in any way possible.
She left the house to pick Jon up from work. She was nervous. She was not sure where the evening would lead. She knew what she wanted and she was going to do everything she could do to claim it. But, she reminded herself that just because Jon wanted to see her, did not mean that he wanted to get back together. She blushed when she thought of how phenomenal the makeup sex would be if they did get back together. She had not had sex with anyone else since the breakup. She was hungry.
He hopped into the front seat of her car. They smiled at each other. They made small talk on the way to Sarah's house. Talking always came easy to them, but today it was a little awkward. Sarah didn't worry about it since she knew that once they really talked, they would both feel more at ease.
Sarah led Jon straight to the bedroom. This was how it had always been for them. It was not that they only ever had sex when they were together. They often watched a movie, talked, joked around, and used their laptops in her bedroom. The bedroom was as much of a living room as a bedroom to Sarah.
They sat on the bed. Sarah just looked at him, waiting for him to begin. After all, he was the one that requested to see her. He already knew how she felt. She had not been shy about letting him know her honest feelings even while they were apart.
"I really am glad that you are doing better," Jon began.
"Thank you," Sarah said with a smile. It was then that Sarah realized that Jon had not even known her before the depression hit. He didn't know the real her. She hoped he would want to know her.
"I was really hurt when you broke up with me. I know you didn't mean to hurt me, but it still hurt."
"I know," she lowered her head and whispered.
He took her chin into his hand and raised her head so he could look into her eyes. "But, I'm ready for us to try again," he said.
Sarah threw herself into his arms. He laughed. She loved his laugh. He held her tight and kissed her on the forehead. She questioned whether or not she should ask for details. What did he expect from her? Did he love her? But, she stopped herself. As long as she was in his arms, she would be happy.
Sarah's lips met his. She had wanted to play for so long. She felt so good since the depression left her that she was always feeling playful. She teased his lips with hers. She sucked in his lower lip before she kissed him deep. He returned her kisses with even more intensity.
She took off his shirt and playfully shoved him backwards onto the bed. She straddled him and started teasing his nipples by sucking and nibbling on them. She took off her shirt and snuggled close to him, kissing his stomach. While bathing him in tender kisses, she opened his pants. He helped her slide them down.
She kissed her way down to his cock. She took an excited breath and began licking the head of his cock. She licked around the head and sucked him into her mouth. Jon moaned as she sucked him. He was getting hard, but she was getting just as excited. She worked her lips and tongue over his shaft until it was completely hard. She continued to suck him as she massaged his balls. She licked his cock up and down before using her tongue to massage underneath his balls. She loved to rub him there with her tongue.
She turned her attention back to his cock. She grabbed and held his side while her mouth worked on him. But to her, this was not work at all. She loved to feel his hard cock in her mouth. As she sucked on him, she felt her wetness increase. She was more than ready and so was he.
They both finished undressing each other. His mouth latched onto her large, brown nipples. She moaned as he sucked them. She loved the feel of his mouth. She loved the feel of him.
He gently eased her onto her back. He kissed her as he slipped a finger into her wet slit. She gasped. He quickly found her clit and teased it with his gently touch before rubbing it harder. Sarah was already about to orgasm when he moved his hand and thrust his cock deep inside her. She gasped and gripped his back as he slowly pushed into her repeatedly. He lowered his head and kissed her.
He put her legs on his shoulders and thrust harder and deeper. Sarah always felt that he fit her perfectly. She felt herself tighten, clamping down on his hard cock. He pounded into her. She couldn't get enough of him. She shuddered as she climaxed. He grunted and thrust through her orgasm before succumbing to his own. She smiled when she felt him throbbing inside her. It was as if his satisfaction meant more to her than her own. He collapsed onto the bed next to her, holding her in his arms.
"I love you," he whispered into her ear as he held her tightly against him.
Sarah knew this meant that the scars would heal. She had dreamed of this moment for months. In all honesty, this was not how she imagined it. This was better than she could have imagined.