My First Facialbyjulieshining©
I don't know why it happens, it just does.
I have spoken to my psychiatrist about it, but he didn't really say why he thought it happened. He said something about low self-esteem and that sort of thing, but it didn't make a great deal of sense to me at the time.
The first time it happened was an accident. I am 24 now but I was pretty slow when it came to any sort of sexual activity.
I was 18 by the time I had my first oral sex. I was still living at home and so was my boyfriend at the time. He wasn't rich and neither was I. It is different in Australia, teenagers don't have cars and that sort of thing like they do in the USA when you are that age.
It seems pretty dumb now, but I use to practice oral sex on things before doing it for real.
Bananas, bottles, my fingers. I knew that I didn't want to be crap at it, I didn't want my boyfriend to go around saying that I was a lousy suck.
'Lousy suck' or a 'good suck' is how most Australian men refer to girls during their teens years.
Anyway, we were at the beach. It was as simple as that, and Dave was bugging me for ages to have sex with him.
He was 18 as well, so I guess I felt obliged to do something, but I knew there was no way I was going to have full sex at the beach. Besides, there was contraception and stuff to thing about, I just wasn't ready for full sex.
We walked hand in hand along the length of the beach. I was wearing a bikini (of course) a mauve color that would make me throw up today. Dave was wearing 'cozies' which is what we call swimming wear for men in Australia. He had an erection that I could see.
We walked to the end of the beach, and as it wasn't the hottest day there weren't many people there. Then there were the large rocks, like boulders, and if you walk around them you can't be seen by people on the beach.
So that is what we did. We walked for about 5 minutes to make sure that no one would see us.
I sat on a rock and Dave stood in front of me and took out his penis. He didn't take it over the cozies like you would imagine, but he pushed them down where his leg went.
His penis wasn't that large as he was only 18, and it was good because it meant that performing oral sex on him was easy – it didn't give me a jaw ache.
When I was 18 I THINK I performed oral sex ok. Dave never complained, it was the think he liked the most, but I wish he would have said that I was fantastic at it or something like that – but he never did.
It always made me feel very horny, and often I would masturbate when I sucked him.
Some girls talk about how they don't like sucking their boyfriend's penis, but I have never understood that. If they don't like a penis and they are not a lesbian (and that's cool too) then they must have really miserable sex lives.
Anyway, I liked along his penis first. I'd learnt before that if I sucked the end of it straightaway he would come too quickly and he would be in this state of real frustration, almost violent.
So I started slowly, licking around, and even then I knew to play with the guys balls at the same time.
Very soon he was ready to cum. That's how it is with guys that age.
I didn't swallow cum when I was 18. I just felt it wasn't the thing to do, although now I am 24 I've done everything under the sun so I swallow. It's not my favorite taste in the world, it actually depends on the guy, so if you take the penis in deep then you can swallow it without tasting it.
Also, I feel it is really rude just to take cum in your mouth and then spit it out like a pierce of awful stuff. Just a bad look.
So with Dave I always stopped sucking just as he was about to cum, he always told me, and then I would use my hand to bring him off.
But this time at the beach was the first time that I sucked him while he was standing straight in front of me. So, to cut a long story short, when he came he didn't give me enough warning, and he ejaculated across my face with some of it going into my hair.
Because I have dark blonde hair, you could see where it was. It spurted across my cheek, my lips, and across one of my eyes.
Dave just yelled in pure excitement, I could tell that it was the best orgasm he ever had with me. He just went for it and he was so grateful a few second later when he came down from his orgasm.
I went into the water to wash the cum off my face and to wash it out of my hair. Also, I just needed a few moments alone.
I got out of the water and got a towel to wipe myself off. I didn't really see what Dave was doing. I saw him drying himself off, or at least that is what it looked like, but he was masturbating!
I was amazed he could do that because he had just came.
I said I didn't know he could do that and he explained it was so hot for him, ejaculating across my face. Saying the words made him short of breath he was so excited my it.
I knew what to do. I sat down and told him 'Dave, I want you to cum on my face again.'
This time he was a bit rough. He held my head and started fucking me in the mouth. I know that sounds crude, but there is no other way to describe it.
I wasn't sucking him, because that suggests that I was doing something to him, but he was just using me, just like a warm wet hole to come in.
He took much longer this time, about 5 minutes, and as soon as was close to cumming he grabbed my hair and pulled me away with one hand, and with his other hand he kept masturbating those view extra seconds till he came and then pointed his penis at my face.
I closed my eyes and he spurted across my face again, and then very gently he rubbed it across my face so that it covered me completely.
The stuff I am writing about now happened when I was 18. I've since learnt it is one of the things that almost all guys like, so I have done this with every boyfriend since.
I don't know why it is that guys like it so much.
I don't feel that it has anything to do with my 'self-esteem' at all, as my psychiatrist put it.
I guess it is just one of those things.