Nervous

I'm nervous and my thoughts race, I wish I could just get off this plane, but I can't get off this plane and my the competing emotions wouldn't let me anyway. So I fly along and worry, what have I gotten myself into, what she will be like, what will Thailand be like. What if it's nothing like the pictures or the videos in my special collection. It helps if I close my eyes, then I can see her picture again. The pose was sexy, Eamy looked petite and the little black dress was amazing. But then suddenly the worries hit me again, all I can think about is her penis, how am I going to deal with that. Eamy's sexy picture and my worries compete for my emotions. I question whether she can really be that pretty, is she really that petite, and most importantly will I really like that kind of girl. My thoughts swirl, I can't believe I'm actually doing this.

But this is real and I'm actually going to Thailand and I am going see and touch her. In the picture she is delicate and petite but still she's a guy, she has a dick, how weird will that be. I don't know how to act, am I supposed to touch it, I don't know, I guess I can if I want to, but I certainly can't imagine having that thing in my mouth. That thought leads to more uncertainty, what if Eamy has needs, ten days is a long time, how do I deal with her needs. The possible answers overwhelm my emotions, a shudder runs up my spine. I know she has one but what is it like, is it like mine, I wonder what the hormones have done to her. The websites never give specifics, just teases, "just enough, you can handle it" or something like that. Could a little guy like her have a big one, I've seen videos that say yes.

My nervousness is natural I guess, normally I like girls, I have a girlfriend. My girlfriend and I have sex, normal boyfriend and girlfriend sex. I've never used a girls bottom, hell I've never even asked a girl to let me do that to her. But the idea of doing that to a special girl like Eamy is something I dream about. Girls like her are special, the overstuffed panties, the sleek bottom, the knowing smile, just the thought excites.

So, here I go, I'm on my ways to the world of tiny titties, sexy bottoms and panties that are a little too full in front. This is a world where the girls bottom is not off-limits, in fact she expects you to use her bottom. I've read a lot and I've seen a lot of videos, but this is going to be real, and in just a few hours. This time I wouldn't be at home with my dick in my hand . There I can just jump past the parts I don't like. This is going to happen and it's going to happen to me. I've read the sex travel website a million times. I booked the travel and sex package through them, it seemed like the safest way to do it. I know her name is Eamy, I know that in the picture she is pretty. I know that kathoey is not a word to be used in polite company but then lady boy seems awkward. I just hope that this isn't just a huge waste of money and vacation days...the sound of the landing gear on tarmac breaks my chain of thoughts.

My layover in Hawaii is only an hour, so fast food will have to do. The girl at the counter is perky and brunette, she reminds me of Eamy. I had thought about going to Brazil for this little adventure. But the girls there are a little big-boned for my taste, and blonde at that. Besides they all seem to have fake tits, I hate fake tits. Eamy's figure is all natural with a little help from the hormones. Her bio said 32 and a 24 inch waist. That's fine with me, she is beautiful, especially in that little black dress.

A picture of a girl like Eamy in panties, seems so very naughty, my mind tells me it's a guy, but my eyes just know she is pretty. I like watching videos were the girl's pretty lips shape themselves to the guys erection, I like to watch him touch her through her panties, I like watching her take him into her mouth. But watching them make love is even better, I like it when they film the lovers from the side, the girl on her knees. Then she's all girl, her pretty long hair dangles, her nipples are hard. The whimpers when she accepts him where she is tight excite me. But if they roll over, I'm conflicted, it's better if is she is small and soft, if she is big and hard it bothers me. It's even worse if the man takes her in his mouth, only lips that are pretty and painted should do that. And that's were my doubts come from, I wonder if I can really I do it, or am I flying half way around the world for nothing. But my doubts are always pushed back by my desire, I want to be the one to make her moan. I want a girl like Eamy to make me hard with her mouth. I can't wait to hold her hips in my hands, I need to know that her bottom is up in the air for me. I want to feel her tightness when she arches her back, I want to push into her bottom, I want to make her whimper.

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I'm kind of surprised that the restaurant is so busy this late at night, but I guess Bangkok is like any other big city. I'm starved and Eamy had suggested dinner as soon as the cab got moving. Her English is perfect with a touch of London to my ears, but she had spoken Thai the cab driver. The menu is a mystery to me, Eamy smiles.

"I'll help you....do you like sushi", closing her menu she slid a little closer to me in the booth. The noise and rush of waiters gave me a sense of privacy even though we were in a crowd of people.

"Yes...and a Bud light too please". Eamy ordered for both of us, the waiter didn't blink an eye.

Some of my concerns had been answered as soon as I off the plane. Yes, Eamy is tiny and yes she is that pretty. She didn't need a sign with my name on it, she was easy to find. Every guy in the waiting area was watching the pretty brunette in the dress. The quick peck on the cheek made me feel welcome .

"I'll help you", Eamy had said at the customs counter. I had nothing to declare but it was nice to have someone that spoke the language to help. Seeing Eamy in person I realized that her internet picture is a little out of date. She's a little older now, about 27 I'd guess. But the extra years don't matter, she is a beautiful woman, not some hairy legged guy in red panties. There is no silliness here, no wild makeup or bright orange teeny bop-per tights. I couldn't help but study her face, I believed her when she said that her figure was natural, but no guy on earth has a nose or lips as cute as Eamy. She was pretty in the picture, but in person she is amazing. Whoever did the work on her face is talented. Smiling at my fascination she opened her purse. Using two slim fingers, she pulled out an envelope.

"Look I'm not pregnant", she said with a little grin as she placed the package on the dark table top. I had to laugh, a little humor helped with the tension. As promised it was her test results with today's date and a room key. "The Hilton" the key said in English with fancy type.

"I already checked us in, it's nice", Eamy's casual grace made me feel a little bit more at ease. But small talk still didn't come very easily, Eamy seemed to understand and it got a little easier after our food arrived. Yes, she had studied in England, teaching English in Thailand is a very respectable way to earn a living. She loved having the summers off, it gave her time to spend a few weeks at the Hilton she said with a smile in my direction.

After dinner and a few bud's Eamy steered the conversation, taking my hand she asked me the question. It was a question I never expected to answer, certainly not half way around the world, in a crowded Thai restaurant. I must have looked shocked, but Eamy stayed quiet giving me time to answer.

"No, I don't have a boy friend. I have always had a girlfriend". Eamy smiled at my answer, given our situation I guess the answer could have had several meanings.

"Have you ever been with a girl like me". Her tiny fingers tightened their grasp on my hand. I must have blushed. Eamy just smiled and rested her head on my shoulder, I could feel her breath on my ear.

"I'll help you". God she was so soft and sexy, so intense and seductive.

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I was exhausted from almost 24 hours of travel and I needed a shower. Eamy was right, the Hilton suite was pretty amazing. There was a sweeping view and a huge bathroom with a private dressing area. The bed looked comfortable, it's proportions matched the rest of the room. The hot water felt good, and the robe was thick, but I was still too nervous to really relax.

"O my god", was all I could say as I stepped back into the bedroom, Eamy shifted her shoulders and wiggled her butt. The dress puddled around her painted toes. Now she was dressed only in white lingerie. The solid white bra and panty set seemed to shape her, the white was perfect against her sun darkened skin. The lacy garter and hosiery made her legs look long an sexy. Eamy smiled and put both of her hands on my shoulders, looking up her eyes questioned me.

"Your beautiful," was all that would come out.

Opening the front of my robe Eamy gave me a once over. At that very moment she could have led me anywhere, so moving towards the bed seemed like a great idea. The bed hardly shifted when Eamy joined me, weighing me in her hand she smiled and slowly stroked me enough to encourage the erection that was already well on its way. Casually rolling closer to me, she put one smooth leg across mine. It felt familiar and sexy when she rubbed her tiny stocking covered foot up and down my leg. Gracefully she rolled over a bit more, her satin panties pressed against my leg, the tiny bulge that always excites me in the pictures was now pressed against my leg.

But this was not a picture, this was real, all that separated me from this girl was the thin material of her panties. Only this was not a girl, not a real one anyway. The little bulge in the panties was a penis, it was carefully tucked away, but it was still a dick. A new wave of panic hit me, just like on the plane, a cold shudder ran the course of my body. There was a penis inside those panties was all I could think, the long slim fingers stroking me belong to a man, a man was holding my dick, Eamy raised up on one elbow.

"Breath....your heart is beating really fast...I can feel it", despite her efforts my manhood was failing me.

"I can't do this," I started to get up.

"Stop....your fine... it's OK... be still... relax... I'll help you", Eamy's tone was caring yet firm.

My head flopped back down on the pillow, Eamy's grip changed, now instead of the stroking motion from a few moments ago her small delicate hand was still, her palm covered my penis.

"Your OK," she said. Maybe so, but it still felt weird to have a man touching me there. I was so confused, I had waited so long for this, I had been waiting for what was happening now, but now I wasn't so sure I wanted it. I was shaking, Eamy moved her hand, leaving me uncovered for a second as she quickly rolled all the way on top of me. Looking down at me her long hair veiled her dark eyes. When she moved I could feel her silky panties rubbing against my body. Eamy felt soft and cuddly, she squirmed and then settled her weight, her breath felt warm and humid on my neck.

What she said wasn't that important, hell I don't even remember what she said. It was the intimacy that mattered and she knew it. I guess it is a normal reaction, because my hands found her waist and then slid to her bottom. I hadn't really seen her backside without the dress, but now it felt nice in my hands. The panties covered her whole bottom, they were silky and smooth, The front of her panties rested in the soft part of my stomach just below my belly button. Soft words flowed from her red lips between what felt like little kisses on my ear. A scantily clad girl laying on your chest is a nice thing, it just seems natural to caress a her bottom. I didn't know where this was going but at least this part felt normal. I closed my eyes and just enjoyed the little sounds she made as I touched her bottom, it was an amazing combination of soft femininity and firmness. Without thinking I slipped my fingers under the elastic band of her panties. Eamy purred and flexed her cheeks in my hand, with a start it occurred to me what I was doing, I jerked my hand out. Eamy giggled in my ear, she slipped her hand between us. I guess my erection had recovered a little, I groaned when she opened and then closed her thighs around my manhood.

"Feel good," it wasn't really a question.

My breathing had calmed a little, but now Eamy was working hard to make my pulse race again. Between the squeezing warmth of her thighs and the soft kisses on my neck she was making me remember why I was here. Timing can be mysterious but Eamy knew the secret tonight, sitting up her long dark hair dangled as it framed her pretty face, this girl had my full attention. Beautiful eyes, full lips, nice ass, and hard little nipples pushing against her delicate lace, maybe this was heaven. I started to rub my palms across the little points but her soft voice interrupted me.

"Welcome to Thailand, " she flipped her hair over her shoulder.

Her panties slid across my hardness as she looked up at me, it was a slow slide down, her panties felt soft and smooth when they touched my manhood. The little bulge had not changed, she was still soft like a girl. Eamy's eyes focused on me as her chin slid along my length, her tongue made a circle around her lips. Most girls close their eyes while they do it, not this time Eamy looked up at me as her lips worked. She closed her lips tightly around me at the end, I had never gone all the way in a girls mouth.

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The morning light filtering in through the curtains must have woken Eamy, she quietly slid off the bed and made her way towards the bathroom. I was groggy, but the sight of that bottom, wrapped in panties and perfectly framed by her garter belt, was enough make think this was going to be a good morning.