Rob and the Kiss of Death

She used the key I'd given her to let herself in. I wasn't expecting her so I was sitting on the couch reading James Lee Burke's latest, "The Glass Rainbow." I put the book down and gave her an appreciative look. She was drop dead gorgeous and the sexiest looking woman I had ever laid eyes on. She was the kind of woman that a star had on his arm at the Academy Awards or some MTV award show. She was the kind of woman you saw with super stars, famous athletes or some extremely rich bachelor. The kind of woman a guy like me normally couldn't even get close to.

I suffered under no illusions about myself. Thirty-five years old, early male pattern baldness and ten pounds overweight -- in decent shape -- but still overweight. But I wasn't a normal guy. I had something that she wanted -- something that she needed.

"Hi baby" she said, "Glad to see me?"

"Always glad to see you and you know it."

She walked toward me shedding her clothes as she came and I marveled at the luck that had put us together. Luck both good and bad. Good for now -- extremely good for now -- but the bad was coming. Hopefully a long way away, but that it was coming was never in doubt.

Her name was Holly Gail Catron and she was the kiss of death.

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I was eighteen when I Mary Ellen Shaver. It was the first day of class at Eastern Michigan University and I was sitting at a desk in the middle of the room when three girls and two guys came in together. They looked around trying to find five seats together and then their gaze came to rest on me. I had an empty seat on each side of me and there were two empty right in front of me.

One of the girls said something to the others and then she headed for me.

"Excuse me" she said, "But could I ask you for a big favor?"

"I suppose."

"My friends and I would like to sit together. Could you move to one of the seats off to the side?"

I took a close look at her and liked what I saw. It wouldn't hurt to have a good looking girl thinking well of me and so I said:

"Anything for a pretty lady" and I got up and moved. When class was over and we were leaving the room we hit the door at the same time and she smiled at me and said:

"Thank you for being so nice."

"Any time. Pretty ladies have but to ask and I rush to do their bidding."

She giggled and turned left in the hallway and I went right. That afternoon in room 106, Introduction to Poetry, it happened again. I was sitting in the middle of four vacant seats when she and her friends came in. I saw her scan the room for five seats together and her eyes fell on me. I knew what was coming so I waved her over and got up to move to an empty seat in the back.

"You are so sweet" she said as I walked by her.

The next day I hit the school cafeteria at ten to twelve and as I left the cashier I looked for a place to sit. The place was packed, but I saw a familiar face at a table with an empty seat. I walked over and said:

"Care to repay the favor?"

She and her two girlfriends looked up at me and she smiled and said:

"What do you think girls? Should we gamble that he isn't an axe wielding mass murderer?" One said, "He is kind of cute" and the other said, "Maybe not a murderer, but he could be some sort of pervert." The first one giggled and said, "Oh goody; a pervert. Perverts are good. Please join us."

The girls were Mary Ellen, Marsha and Gail and after introducing myself Mary Ellen asked:

"Where are you from Rob?"

"Right here."

"Right here?"

"Yep. Born and raised right here in Ypsilanti."

"Great. You can tell us where everything is. The places we can go to have fun."

"Can't help you much there. There isn't a whole lot to do here in Ypsiltucky. There are a couple of places down in Belleville or close to the airport down in Romulus, but most of the good places are over in Ann Arbor."

"But you can show us, right?"

"I'm only nineteen so I can't get you into any of the places I think you are wanting to go to. Besides, I have a part time job loading cargo planes out at Willow Run and I only get maybe one night a week off."

"And you want to spend that one night with your girlfriend, right?"

"Not hardly. She decided to go back east to go to college and I'm a realist. An eleven month high school romance isn't likely to survive an eleven hundred mile separation. I'm betting that I'll be replaced by Christmas break (I didn't miss it by much. I got the 'Dear John' the day after Thanksgiving) or by New Years."

"I'm in the same boat" Mary Ellen said. My boyfriend is going to UCLA and before he even left he told me that we should date others."

"You going to?"

"Probably."

"I'm not working this Friday. Can I be the first?"

"You sure are a fast worker."

"Got to try and get to you before someone else does."

Mary Ellen turned to her friends and said, "What do you think girls? Should I give him a try?"

The one named Marsha looked at Mary Ellen and then said, "If you don't I will."

Mary Ellen got a surprised look on her face. "Whoa! The Ice Queen sees something. I'd better grab you before you can get away."

She looked from Marsha to me and then back at Marsha and then said: "Unless you want first dibs."

"He asked you, not me."

"How about it Bobby; want to give Marsha first chance?"

"I prefer Rob."

"Maybe, but you look like a Bobby to me. I kind of like the sound of it -- Bobby. You can be Rob to everyone else, but you'll be Bobby to me."

It wasn't worth arguing about so I let it drop and I turned to Marsha and said:

"I don't know any of you, but I'd like to get to know all of you. Would you like to share your Friday night with me?"

"Yes; I believe I would."

I saw Mary Ellen and Gail share shocked expressions and I wondered what that was all about.

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My Friday night date with Marsha went off well. I took her out for dinner and then we caught a movie after which I took her back to the apartment she shared with Mary Ellen and Gail. When I pulled up in the apartment parking lot and before I even had a chance to try for a kiss Marsha said:

"You caught that "Ice Queen" reference that other day didn't you?"

"I did, but I've not seen anything to make me believe it."

"That's because I'm not an ice queen. Gail and Mary Ellen call me that because as long as I've known them I've never dated a boy. You are the first and probably the last and what I am going to tell you is my deepest darkest secret and I'm trusting you to keep it. Not even Gail or Mary Ellen know, but I've never dated a boy because I'm into girls."

"I don't understand."

"Sure you do. I'm a lesbian. I'm gay. I'm only out with you tonight because I believe you are a hell of a nice guy and for some reason that I don't even understand I don't want to see you hurt."

"I'm confused."

"No more than I am at my even being here, but I wanted the chance to give you a warning. Stay away from Mary Ellen. She's my friend and I love her dearly, but because I have known her as long as I have I know what kind of person she is. She will hurt you Rob. Do yourself a favor and stay away from her."

She leaned toward me, kissed me on the cheek and was out of the car and heading up the walk before I could get out and get the door for her. I didn't even think of her warning as she walked away. My only thought was, "A lesbian? What a waste."

But Marsha's warning came back to haunt me later. Much later and much too late to do anything about it.

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Monday Mary Ellen's group was smaller when they came to class. One of the guys wasn't there and I found out later that his first day of college was also his last, but I never found out why. His absence left a vacant seat next to Mary Ellen and when she saw me looking her way she pointed to it. I got up and moved to sit with her. As I took the seat I saw Marsha give me a look that I took to mean:

"I warned you you poor twit."

We made small talk until Professor Irwin came into the room, called the roll and then gave me a ration of shit for screwing up his seating chart.

At lunch Mary Ellen was sitting alone and I joined her. She asked me how my date with Marsha had gone and I said that I had enjoyed it.

"Are you going to go out with her again?"

"That is up to you."

"Up to me? Why is it up to me?"

"Because you are the one I really want to date. Marsha is a nice girl, but she really doesn't grab me like you do."

"I don't know Rob. Marsha is my friend."

"Trust me; Marsha is not interested in me. There was no spark between us. It was a nice date, but we won't be repeating it."

"Let me think about it."

She thought about it and (probably after talking with Marsha) decided to go out with me. The first date led to a second and the second to a third. On the third we made out and again made out on the fourth and fifth. It was on the sixth date when Mary Ellen told me that she liked sex, but fully intended to go to her marriage bed a virgin.

"How can you say that you like sex and then say that you are going to stay a virgin? Don't you have to have sex to find out you like it?"

"There is sex sweetie and then there is sex."

"That doesn't make any sense."

"It does if you think about it. Aren't blow jobs sex? Isn't eating pussy sex?"

"Well yeah, I guess."

"So how's this sweetie; you can never fuck me, but if you will eat my pussy I will suck your cock."

To me, a stone assed virgin, the thought of putting my mouth on a woman's private parts was absolutely disgusting, but the thought of a blow job had my mind working overtime to try and come up with a way to get the one while not having to give the other. Mary Ellen was wise to the way of boys and she said:

"Oh no sweetie; I get mine first and then you get yours."

Nothing for it at that point but honesty. "I've never done it. I don't know how."

"It is easy sweetie; I can show you in minutes."

I wrestled with it. I just knew that as soon as I got close enough to it to get a good whiff I would barf and then I would not only not get a blow job, but Mary Ellen would be so disgusted with me that she would tell everybody and I'd end up a laughing stock. Still, it was a chance to get my first blow job so I took a deep breath and said:

"Promise me you won't laugh at me?"

"I promise."

Surprisingly it didn't bother me at all. In fact, Mary Ellen's moans and cries were kind of a turn on. Her fingers dug into my hair and she pulled me against her and then she screamed out:

"Oh shit! Oh fucking sweet Jesus!" and her body arched up at me and then went limp. I thought I'd hurt her and pulled back in alarm. She looked up at me with a question on her face:

"What?" she asked.

"Are you all right?"

"I'm more than all right sweetie. Are you sure that you have never done that before?"

Before I could answer that she grabbed a handful of my shirt and pulled me back down. She kissed me and her tongue tried to lick my belly button from the inside. She broke the kiss and said:

"Now it is your turn sweetie."

There is no adequate way to describe to describe your very first blow job. It was marvelous! It was stupendous! It was mind blowing! And when I came Mary Ellen did something that I never expected. She kept me in her mouth and swallowed what came out of my cock. When I was limp she let my cock fall from her mouth, looked up at me and smiled as she said:

"Now wasn't that worth what you did for me?"

I wanted to say "Again? Can we please do it again?" but Mary Ellen was already digging in her purse for her makeup. She saw my look and she knew what it meant and she smiled at me and said:

"There is always tomorrow sweetie."

And there was and many, many more tomorrows after that.

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Mary Ellen and I started dating and while I wasn't exclusive with her we did get together once or twice a week and our get-togethers always ended up with our mouths being busy on each other. Mary Ellen dated others and it sort of bent me out of shape and one night when I was in a 'pouty' mood Mary Ellen told me that I shouldn't be that way.

"I have to go out with other guys because I promised Mike (her California boyfriend) that I wouldn't take up steady with a guy and he promised me the same. Date others yes, but don't get involved in a serious relationship. I'm more serious with you that I should be, but I had to have somebody to give me what Mike got me used to. None of the others get what you get sweetie. We are exclusive in that way."

By then I'd gotten my 'Dear John' from Jenny and Mary Ellen knew it. When I told her she got a sad look on her face and said:

"I'm hoping that it won't happen, but I'm half expecting a 'Dear Jane' from Mike. I haven't heard from him in a month.

A Tuesday night at work ended my relationship with Mary Ellen. I was loading a DC-8 with Harvey Marks, a guy I'd gone to high school with and who was also an EMU student, and he said:

"I see you have been keeping steady company with Mary Ellen Shaver. Tell me, old buddy to old buddy; are her blow jobs really as great as I hear?"

I'd known Harv for years, but I had never been a 'kiss and tell' kind of guy so I just said, "No idea Harv" and my tone of voice pretty much told Harv to move on to another subject and Mary Ellen wasn't mentioned between us again.

Harv's question did prompt thoughts though and 'so much for my so called exclusivity' was chief among them. I liked -- make that loved -- my blow jobs, but I had never liked being lied to so I didn't show up for my date with Mary Ellen the next night. She called me and asked me where I'd been.

"Decided that I was tired of being one of many Mary Ellen."

There was a second or two of silence on the other end of the line and then I heard the click as she hung up the phone. I avoided her after that and she avoided me.

Christmas break was only two days away when Harv invited me to go to a party with him. He was a member of the Phi Delta fraternity and they were having a pre-Christmas party before going home for the holiday break.

There was a keg and I grabbed a beer and wandered around, socialized and explained for the hundredth time why I didn't join. I would have liked to, but between school and work I just didn't have the time. I'd been there maybe an hour when one of the guys said:

"You going to pay your old girlfriend a visit?"

"Old girlfriend?"

"Yeah. She's upstairs pulling a train."

Curious as to who this 'old girlfriend' was I walked up the stairs and then down the hall to the room where all the noise was coming from. I walked into the room and found five naked guys waiting for their turn with the girl on the bed. It was Mary Ellen and she had her legs up on a guy's shoulders and he was pounding into her. She looked over and saw me standing in the doorway. Something came over her face and her right hand came up and it looked like she was reaching for me. I turned and went back downstairs.

Harv came up to me with a concerned look on his face. "Did you know that your girl is upstairs being banged?"

"She hasn't been my girlfriend since you told me about her giving out blow jobs."

"I told you about her blow jobs?"

"The night we were loading the DC-8 for Kansas City."

"I was talking about you."

"What do you meant?"

I was dating her friend Gail and one night when she had a few to loosen her up I tried to get into her pants and she said no so I asked her for a blow job. She laughed and said that I need to get with Mary Ellen if I wanted blow jobs. Then she said, "Just ask your friend Rob about them" and so I did.

"So you don't know if she was giving them out to other guys?"

"I've no idea of what she does or did."

"No matter. She isn't upstairs trying to save her virginity now."

"What does that mean?"

"Nothing Harv. At least not any more."

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Mary Ellen did not show up for classes the last two days and then school was out until after the holidays. When classes started again after New Years Mary Ellen didn't show up for class. Gail, Marsha and John (the other guy from the original group of five) were there, but no Mary Ellen. I got nasty looks from Gail and John and I couldn't understand why.

At lunch I was sitting alone when Gail and Marsha walked up and sat down. Gail looked at me and said:

"What the hell did you do to Mary Ellen?"

"Me? I didn't do anything to her."

"You must have. She was seeing you and she was happy and now all of a sudden she is a basket case and you aren't around. They have to be connected somehow."

"In a way they might be, but I haven't done anything to Mary Ellen except stop dating her."

"What do you mean by "in a way they might be" and why did you stop dating her?"

You get the credit for that Gail."

"Me? How do I get into it?"

I told her about what Harv told me. "The way he understood it was that you were telling him that Mary Ellen was giving out blow jobs to her dates. When he told me that I stopped dating her. That is all there is from my standpoint."

"How could you do that to her. She liked you. She was happy with you."

"Maybe so, but she did date other guys and if she was giving all of them blow jobs I didn't want to spend anymore time with her. It was one thing if I was the exclusive recipient of her oral favors, but the keyword there is 'exclusive.' Vaginal sex isn't the only way you can spread venereal disease. Once I found out that I wasn't exclusive Mary Ellen and I were done."

"But you were exclusive."

"Then you should have made that clear to Harv."

"Well now you know. Call her."

"Too late for that now."

"Why for Christ's sake? The poor girl is hurting."

"Not my problem."

"How can you be so cold about this? I thought you liked her."

"I did."

"You did? You don't now?"

"I might still like her, but we are still over."

"But why?"

I thought about it for a few seconds and then figured that they were her friends and if she was a basket case like Gail said she was going to need them, but to help her they would have to know as much as possible. I told them about the frat house party and what I'd seen and how it had disgusted me.

"Oh my God" Marsha said, "You don't know?"

"Know what?"

"Mary Ellen was given a date rape drug and was taken advantage of."

"That's her story?"

"It's true. When they finally left her alone she called the police. They took her to the hospital and did blood work and found the drug in her system. They arrested every guy in the house and Mary Ellen identified nine of them as guys who had used her. One of them worked out a plea deal and ratted out all the others and six more besides. The school is trying to keep a lid on it and Mary Ellen is going along with it."

"Why would she do that?"

"She is here on scholarships and there have been some behind the doors conversations that she may be able to get a full ride for the rest of the time she is here is she doesn't make a big stink. You need to call her Rob."

I thought about it for a day or two and then I picked up the phone and called. We met in a back booth at a restaurant and we talked. I found out that the night we had talked and I had told her that I was tired of being one of many she had just finished reading a letter from Mike telling her that he was sorry, but he had met some one else. My dumping her an hour later had crushed her.

She spent a couple of days feeling sorry for herself and then she decided that she needed to get out and try to get over her funk. She let some guys she knew talk her into going to the frat party and she ended up being raped.

"There was a bright side to it. I was so out of it that I never felt the pain of losing my cherry. How about you Rob? What have you been up to?"

She delivered that line in such a 'chipper' tone of voice that I was stunned. She saw the look on my face and said: