The Babysitter's BluesbyChristie052780©
I'd been sitting for the Wilman's since I was thirteen and over all of those years I'd always thought of Mr. Wilman as an uncle. I'd sit for them on weekends, holidays, for Christmas parties, for their cruise to Alaska, and for a few weddings and funerals, too. It got to be such a regular thing that when they built their new house they actually built it with a guest room that had me in mind.
When things went wrong, I'll admit it was my fault for letting things get out of control. The Wilman's had gone out for an overnight business trip and I was sitting as usual. I got the kids to bed around nine and I guess it was around eleven when Kyle showed up. He was my kind-of boyfriend, you know? We'd kissed a few times, but no big deal.
So he shows up from his work and I'm just in my jammies and I took him to my room where it would be quiet. We talked a bit and then he started kissing me and things got steamy. He got a little out of hand and I had to get myself together and stop him and then see him out. No problem, right?
The next week Mr. Wilman calls me over to sit and when I get there in the afternoon it's just him. I asked him what was up and he says Mrs. Wilman went to San Diego and took the kids and he has business and will meet them tomorrow and I'm like, what? You know?
So he says sit down and he'd explain it. So I sit and he turns on the TV and there's Kyle and me on the guest room bed kissing! I'm just like, blown away! I'm watching this and so totally forgot Kyle got my top up and was kissing my boobs and there it is on the TV! And worse was me doing things to Kyle. Mr.
Wilman fast forwarded to where I cleaned the sheets. I just started crying cause I knew Mr. Wilman was going to tell my parents and I'd be so busted and lose my car and college and everything.
Mr. Wilman was just straight up and says I can stay the night like my parents expect or I can go home and he'll make sure they know about this and he'll put it on the internet for anyone to see. I'm like, just crying and he says are you gonna stay and I'm like, yeah, I have to don't I? And he's like, yeah, you do.
I'm thinking he's gonna punish me or teach me a lesson so I go along with it thinking it's better that he does it than my folks find out. So he says follow me and I take his hand and he takes me upstairs to his bedroom. I'm not kidding that I didn't think he'd do anything weird cause he was like my uncle, you know? So we get in his room and says okay, this is how it goes. We aren't leaving this room for a while, okay? And he went on.
I don't really remember the rest of what he said just that I had to go along with him or my parents would see the video. He didn't have to add that my life would be over if he did.
I remember just not believing it as he took off my dress and let it drop to the floor. He didn't care that I was crying as he undid my bra and then took my panties off. He told me to get on the bed and I did. I knew what was going to happen but I didn't believe it was real, you know? I just curled up on the bed and I knew he was naked when he cuddled up behind me.
I felt his thing poke at me and I told him I was a virgin. He was like, at your age? Come on! And I'm like, yeah, I am. And he stops and says there's the door, you can leave if you want. I started to move and he says, but if you do, you know what happens.
I just laid back and he scooted up close to me and I felt his thing between my legs. He got his arms around me and started kissing me on the neck and feeling me up all over. It was weird feeling his thing down there but I got used to it after a while.
He went on a long time with kissing my neck and finally turned me to face him and then he kissed me on the lips and I let him. I had to.
He was kissing me and after a while he kind of pushed me in the back which made me sort of arch my back. It also made me push my butt at him and he took me by the hip and held me. His thing went back and forth at me and then I felt it get wet a little and I knew it was getting wet from me.
I made a little sound when it went in me a little and then he kissed me some more and just rubbed it back and forth.
He was kissing me when I felt him tense up and then he started pushing into me.
I said no, please no, and he didn't stop. He just kept going. I felt him get more and more inside me until it hurt when he got all the way in. I didn't have a cherry and I guess the tampons took care of that.
He stopped for a moment and said he'd been waiting a long time for this. Then he kissed me on the lips again, started feeling me up, and then started up again down there. It hurt each time he got all the way in but I had to let him, you know? It just went on and on and then I felt him start to go faster. It was then when I said we needed a condom and he's like, sorry, too late. And I started crying again and he just kept at it.
He finally grabbed me and went in me as deep as he could and I felt him. His thing just throbbed inside me and I felt it squirting deep in me. I knew what it was and there was no stopping him from putting it in me.
When he got soft and pulled it out I thought it might be over. I laid on the bed crying to myself and feeling his stuff leaking out hoping I didn't get pregnant.
He got up and went to the bathroom and when he came back he cuddled up to me again but it stayed soft.
I guess it was half an hour later when he got really hard again. He kissed me and says he took a Viagra for the night. He did it to me five more times that day and night. In the morning I heard him on the phone with his wife saying he'd have to stay home cause of work and she'd do fine with the kids. He told my parents I'd have to stay for the weekend.
I was in the sheets when he came upstairs and he says,, you heard that, right? And I'm like, yeah. I wathced him take another pill and he went downstairs and came back a bit later with breakfast. We ate together and he was staring at me the whole time.
When we got done he took my tray and put it on the floor. The he dropped his robe and I could see he was ready again. He pulled the sheets back and I rolled away to let him do his thing and he took me by the shoulder and rolled on my back.
Watch, he said. He pulled my legs apart and got between them. His thing seemed so big to go in me, but I knew it had been there already.
I asked him about a condom and he just laughed. No way, he said, I want you bare. I couldn't help but watch as he went in me and then laid down on me.
That was three months ago. He made me give up Kyle, school, my job, everything, and made me move in with them. It was a few weeks again when the doctor said I was pregnant. Mr. Wilman told my parents and they told me never to talk to them again. Kyle won't talk to me either. Mrs. Wilman thinks I'm a lost girl. I have no where to go. All I have is my diary. I have to close up now cause Mr. Wilman is coming up the stairs.