things to do on sunday when your l

eat black grapes
read a health book
walk to the bus stop and back just for the heck of it
call your mother
write a letter (but not to him)
finish the black grapes
make soup
write another letter (this time to him)
eat the soup with oat cakes
re-write the letter to him
go out on the porch, wishing you had a ciggie
tear up the letter to him
dial the first 4 digits of his phone number
eat the rest of the oat cakes
stand on your head for 5 minutes (new perspective)
make a cup of coffee
call your sister
drink the coffee cold
dial the first 5 digits of his number
tape the pieces of the letter back together
eat a tangerine
eat a Hershey's bar (almonds)
call your best friend (but she's busy)
dial the first 6 digits...
disconnect the phone
soak in a tub with epsom salt
reconnect the phone
try to read a magazine in bed
skip the article on the "other woman"
answer the phone after 3 rings
it's him
he's whispering
he's downstairs while his wife is in the shower
he says he loves you
he wants to see you on friday
the whole day
you pretend to check your calender
you say you'll call him at work tomorrow
he says goodbye and hangs up in a hurry
you try to sleep
you see images of him
making love to her
he says it has become mechanical
that it's nothing close to what you two do together
you believe it
but you wish you could have mechanical sex too sometimes
you have a glass of water
take a last pee
and finally fall asleep