Only in Fantasy

I am solitary
Unfeeling, uncaring
My soul locked away
My heart behind a wall
Waiting there
For the safety of the night
When underneath his passion
My barricades fall
My mind comes alive
Awakening hidden desire
His arms around me
His lips on mine
His hands touching my body
Blazing a trail of fire
Driving me wild with delight
Opening myself to him
Pent up lust unleashed
Letting him know me
Connecting, feeling
Coming together
Exquisite pleasure
Felt only in fantasy

Blinded by cold reality
In the harsh light of day
I shut my eyes against it
It chills me
Trapping me in a frigid shell
I exist there, lonely
Longing for the night
To take the numbness away
For my dream to set me free
His fiery embrace
Melting my icy hell
His mouth is my release
Tasting my hunger for him
He feeds my craving
Filling me with his love
I float in blissful sensation
Grasping him, holding on
Savoring this ride
Carrying me high above
Reaching pure ecstasy
Heaven is coming strong
Exploding deep inside
My body shaking
Under his intensity
Contented, fulfilled
This sweet satisfaction
Felt only in fantasy

I retreat again
Into this prison
Bitterness creates
My life so empty
My world so closed
Yearning for escape
Knowing true escape would be
To feel just once
The lust, the passion, the love
I’ve felt before... only in fantasy