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Click hereHe is the one mistake
I wish I could make
Nights of regret
I could risk the heartbreak
Would kill me to do it
No, I’m better than that
Kills me that I didn’t……
I keep looking back
Regret that we never did
Anything worth regretting
In my heart I know if we did
I could never forget it
Hate that I want it
Know I don’t need it
But this hunger inside
Just calls me to feed it
Curse my beautiful parents
And their do-right upbringing
Just this once to forget
I was raised to be decent
After all, why have the privilege to repent
Walk past the mirror
Can look myself in the eye…..
But I’d break every mirror I own
Just to ride this high
He’s heaven to me, I’m sweet solace to him
In the grand scheme of things
He’s my personal battle
But her holy war
Id and conscience…
This beautiful ugly dance
Try to rationalize this……no chance
Friendship this deep, so rare to find
Platonic, yet I need to cut these ties that bind
This isn’t love….so thankful for that
But we give each other, something we both lack
He’s heaven to me, I’m sweet solace to him
His body is with her
But I’ve seen places she’ll never see
Navigated corridors in his mind that she’ll never know
Shouldn’t go there….never my intent
Intimacy without sex…..oh so intense
He has pieces of me that I never share
In the back of my mind……we can’t go there
Proud that we both walked away in the end
But still, every now and then…….
I have so been there. My mom has no idea how proud of me she should be for not having gone there. Darn morals! *grumbles* Hmm,just for payback for teaching me restraint, I should go call her and tell her how close I came..muhahahahaha.