to a faux sado. TK U MLJ LV NV
LIKED YOUR POEM !!!
You can feel her anger and passion coming through this poem. It's unusal in that it's shouting out to the reader, but that's the whole purpose isn't it? I liked it the first time I read it. I liked it when I edited it and now that it's published and out there for public consumption I love it.
You are so brave. I'm glad you stuck to your guns.
Thank you guys!!!! I really could not see this poem written or changed any other way.
I can really relate to the feeling in this... and there's nothing better than being wrapped in their arms after coming down from that place.
POST YOUR WORK IN ALL CAPS. IT IS ONLINE RUDENESS AND MADE ME WANT TO GIVE YOU A 1, I DIDN'T, BUT SHOULD HAVE
When I wrote this piece, I felt anger and frustration. This was the way it came out...and I felt that this was the only way it could be written.
Thank you for reading, critiquing, and voting on it. I do appreciate hearing people's opinions.
I like this one. I have told you that before.
@RickyChampagne Thank you...and yes you have. I'm glad you still enjoy it!
Makes it more intense and the anger really comes through.
That's what I thought, BBB. You have to look at what the writing is about...and read it in that mindset...in my opinion.
I love my husband, But three decades ago it was realized that he was not going to be easy to control unless there was a big reward at the end. I was to be that reward, It was his fathers idea, A few days before my husband came home from the military my father in law asked me to avoid my husband for a week to prove that my husband, was selfish, and a trouble maker, I took two hours for the first argument to start, my husband arrived at 4:00 AM and was directed to the sofa to sleep with a note on the door, My door was locked, Even I thought it was a poor homecoming for a man that had been at sea for 970 days in the last 3 and 1/2 years and the rest of the time at other duties, all of his sea time was under water, but I had agreed to watch how thing unfolded for a week after his return, When his father yanked him out at around 6:30 He was telling my husband he had to get to HR where he was ion military leave from and give them his discharge and get back to work, This was the first argument, My husband was going to take twenty five days for R and R before going back, as per the contract. His father said he knew of no such thing so he was going today, He practicly pushed my husband out the door still in uniform with less than two hours sleep and still in uniform,
All his civies in storage were to big, He started back to work on 2nd shift that night and had not seen me yet, His father said within the week someone will be telling us he is disrupting their life by using his senority rights. you watch. It took one more day before the first crying girl came over about my husband bumping her off 1st shift just crying her eyes out and saying how much she needed days for her daughter, I found out years latter it was not for her daughter but a boy friend on days, but at that time it was heart wrenching to think my husband could be so callous, so I did the next thing requested, I held myself as the future reward if my husband did not use his rights for the good of every one. I was still doing it 16 years later in 2001, For my own needs I was having sex with other men and it became a habit to tell my husband no, strip the money out of his wallet so he could not step out on me, If he tried to improve his job situation me and or his father would scream at him until the headache he always seemed to have made him sick, and seeing the rivers of tears pouring down his face really made people uncomfortable but he was handled. In July 2001 he was emergency rushed from work to a nueral endoscopic surgical unit to have a tumor removed from his brain stem, That was the day the revolt started. From that day it was no longer saying no then caving to what was wanted to defiance and taking what he wanted.
A month after the surgery he decided his 25 years and more than 99.8 % attendance rate was going to work for him. He did not care who, what or why someone wanted a shift, job, vacation or holidays he was going to take what he wanted with his senority Until he became ill at work he had worked every day for the last 16 years, Many times with his father screaming him into doing so. but there was a new plant, with new jobs opening up and the company posted them for bids, He signed for the job he wanted, and went to the national union to override the locals pick, It was a county commissioners son with 8 years, many including his father and myself felt the other mans position in society carried more weight. My husband could care less, His father yelled at him, I offered to complete my promise if he would give the job up, when he just said the same old lie, We found we did not have any influence at all.
So tactics changed, His father told me the night before the bid was coming down that there were going to be four men, talking to my husband the next morning and I was to lock my husband out, Said he might get a good lesson in who had rights, so I did as instructed, My husband arrived and I locked the door and watched the four men reason with my husband, He asked who sucked who's cock in the group and told them to go fuck themselves, I saw the first blow land on my husbands shoulder, It was aimed at his face as another of the four put my husband in a choke hold, I had known my husband was well trained in combat arts but what I saw was pure savagery.
The man with his arm around my husbands throat was suddenly flying through the air and he landed breaking both arms and legs, the commissioners son had both eye sockets shattered Another tried up with his arm nearly torn off and the fourth nearly died when my husband used a straight punch to his chest driving two ribs into his lungs. All anyone could ask is why he could not back down., My husband said never more, so The next Christmas when a coworker came to us and told us about how he was supposed to get his children for the holidays, and how my husband was going to force him to work the holiday, I tried again to offer myself in exchange for his cooperation, That did not work again, but this time his father was not going to take a chance and bought an auto 12 gauge along, The sheriff had been told to keep out of it by the commissioner, and we forced my husband into work with a shotgun in his back, he retired six years latter, He developed MRSA in his spine soon after, For most of the last four years he has been in and out of rehab and hospitals, His demeanor has become very danger filled as demonstrated by two incidents last year,
The first was when he found out about an affair, It was an old boy friend from before I knew my husband, when we were caught my boyfriend thought it would be funny to humiliate a man that used a cane, When my husband passed by he kicked it out from under his hand and called him pathetic. I had seen the same look in 2001, My husband tried to kill my boyfriend. He went to a stress center for anger management, My boyfriend to the ER, when my father in law found out he said he will learn he wont get what he wants this way and asked me to do a favor in a couple of weeks, His father had a friend that just divorced his second wife and need an escort to a political function, I had not been out in a week and accepted, When the day rolled around the center called and said they were releasing my husband, I called his father to cancel and pick his son up. He asked if I had all of his wallet and money which I had kept, he said it would humble his son to walk the 20 plus miles home, would not make it back until the next day, I went and got ready to go when the door opened and my husband was there. I explained I was doing a favor for his father, He said I don't care, You are not going unless when you come back its to pick your things up and leave, I knew he could change the locks that fast. I said I would meet any where after the event he wanted and we would talk the situation out, He said, You owe a 31 year note, It is due tonight, I took off for the door. And he tore my new dress off of me, Said I paid for this, its mine, I again said please any where after the event. He said OK then he is going to be the second in line and not me, He took me on the floor, There is no more refusal on my part, The man I was supposed to accompany came to the door to be shocked my husband was there, He tried to push his way past and everyone said my husband treated him like a rag doll throwing him over the porch rail face first into a cement drive right in front of his arriving mother and father, The center had called them notifying them a ride home was provided by his insurance, His father knew there was trouble coming and told my mother in law they had to get to our house. My mother in law thought that her son was put in the center to help deal with what MRSA did to him. She did not know the particulars of what had been going on for the last three decades, She was very shocked at the anger that was demonstrated and was wondering why his fathers friend hit in the drive, She came into the bedroom and started talking to me, I told her what her husband had wanted over the last 31 years and by the time I was done crying and talking she was furious, Said I deserved what had happened, she went out to talk to her very angry son, He told her of the shotgun escorts the arguments about time off the agreements between his father and other people, By the time my husband was done his father returned and was livid about the treatment his friend had received t find his wife even angrier, They got into it and he said that there had to be some control, his son had to learn he did not have the right to do what others did, He got his wife's cane upside his head at that point, He walked out telling us see what trouble you caused.
Then this memorial day he told my husband he was not invited to the get together in his own home, told my husband he had to leave. My husband told him to blow it out his ass, and stayed, Then when the cookout wrapped up the same man that hit the drive last year stepped up to go to after dinner drinks, My husband was told there were a certain amount of reservations, and I did know what the proper manners for this situation were, My husband settled the question He offered a ride to the Emergency room to remove the mans arm from his rear if he did not scram.
He left real fast, His father was again livid, asked if my husband was retarded, Don't you understand what you are not invited means, And I am tired of your lip for one year, Every one in the party was looking at my husband, They knew that there would be only one thing to make what my husband calls trip offline, It happened when his father slapped him. Everyone backed away real fast as my husband drew back and backhanded his father across the kitchen on his rear, My husband supported himself with his cane grabbed his father with the other hand and lifted him face to face and he told him, That the next time he interfered with his life, with his marriage, or even looked cross eyed like he was going to he was not going to get the gentel treatment he just received. My husband was placed in the center again, He will be bought back in a few minutes, Family Social Services says we abused my husband for decades. I am getting the house ready for the fourth, His father wanted him kept until after the fourth, It is not going to happen, I am not going to tell him he is not invited, His mother says unless I want to go into orbit it is not advisable. It is my husbands house, Is there a way to keep the trouble coming from happening? FSSA says he has rights in his own home and so does metro, I don't know what good manners is required of my husband now. Is there a way.
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