Secret Love Ch. 6
by Deann Laws ©
I hung up the phone. Wow, John sure takes care of me, I'll have to make sure to thank him next time I call him. Well the car is taken care of, my doctor's appointment taken care of, now only if the rest of my life(personal life) would go as smoothly.
I wasn't sure if I would tell Lauri just yet about my doctor's visit. So I'll just wait on that. The rest of the afternoon went smoothly. I basically relaxed in front of the tv but soon got bored. Well maybe I can get started on some supper for Lauri and me, I thought to myself.
I went to the refridgerator and found some corn, carrots, and beans and pulled them out of the freezer and fridge. I found the potatoes and peeled a couple of them. While doing that I had the roast broiling a little first in the oven sauteed with some onions before baking it. I spent the rest of the afteroon preparing dinner. I found some flour and started on my homemade gravy. It was almost 430pm so Lauri would be home soon, so I put in the vegetables and basted them with the roast. I poured a little of the roast's juices into my gravy to give it that extra flavor.
Earlier I had found a cake mix and made a cake and icing. I dipped my finger into the icing...hmmm...that is going to be good. Well it all was done, just needed another hour and it would be done. I rushed into the bathroom and cleaned myself up a little and changed clothes before Lauri would get home. I went back to the couch and relaxed for a few minutes before I had heard Lauri coming in the front door.
The smell of the roast filled the whole house for as soon as Lauri walked in she made a comment at house great it smelled.
"Mmmm...Samantha, what have you done? That smells wonderful. You shouldn't have. Your not hundred percent yet, and you should have let me cook for you. But I must say the roast smells great."
Lauri walked in and put her things down and walked over and sat down next to me. "So is there anything left I can do to help with dinner, or have you done it all already?" Lauri said smiling.
"Nope, its all done, about an hour and it will be ready. So you just go get changed and relax before dinner."
"Samantha you shouldn't have. Here I am the one who is suppose to be taking care of you."
"Well I wanted to. You've been taking care of me and have been there for me the past few weeks so I wanted to do something for you. Besides I was bored with the tv and wanted to keep busy, and it helped to keep me busy with that."
"Well thank you Samantha for doing this. It's actually nice to come home to a cooked meal. I'm so use to being the one to cook all the time."
I smiled at Lauri and grabbed her hand. "Well, as long as I am staying here and am able enough, you don't have to be the one to cook all the time. Besides I like to cook when I can. I hope you like my cooking anyway, maybe after you taste it you won't want me to be the cook anymore." I said jokingly.
"I'm sure it will be great Samatha. If it tastes anything like it smells then I'm sure it will be fine."
"Well why don't you go get changed and dinner should be ready then soon."
"Okay, I'll be right back. You relax now Samantha and let me take care of the rest. I'll get the table set and all, okay?"
"Okay, sounds good to me."
"I'll be right back." Lauri said as she went up the stairs to change.
Lauri came down a few moments later in sweats and a t-shirt but looked really nice and casual at the same time. It was nearing 530pm and the dinner was ready. Lauri and I had been talking about how work and clinic had gone that day for her when the oven's buzzer went off.
Lauri got the roast out and placed it on the dinner table along with the rest of the food, and gravy as we both sat down and dished up our plates.
We both began digging in. "Mmmm...this is wonderful Samantha, how come you never told me you were such a great cook? And this gravy is really great. Did you make this yourself?"
"Yep, everything is made from scratch, even my homemade gravy."
"Well your going to have to give me your recipe." Lauri said as she continued to eat.
We both polished off our plates along with seconds.
"Well I am totally satisfied." Lauri said.
"Well we're not done yet."
"What do you mean we're not done yet?"
"Look over there behind the counter there. I cooked us a cake for dessert." "Oh Samantha, you shouldn't have. You know your very bad for my diet here." She said smiling.
Lauri brought the cake over to the table. "I'm not sure if I can fit anything more in this stomach of mine, but that cake looks so good that I'll have to try a small piece of it."
Lauri cut a small piece for the both of us and handed me a slice of cake. We both finished off our slices and decided to retire to the couch to relax after that huge meal. Lauri cleared the table and then joined me on the couch.
"Thank you Samantha for that lovely meal. That was really nice of you to do that. And you can cook for me anytime." She said smiling at me.
"I'm glad you liked it Lauri. I enjoyed cooking dinner for you."
"Well I enjoyed it too, but don't be burning yourself out here, remember your still recovering here."
"Don't worry so much Lauri. My body is healing up very nicely, and see here." I pointed to my stiches and bruises on my abdomen. "See there, the bruises are hardly evident anymore."
"Yeah, I guess they are Samantha." Lauri said softly.
Lauri sat there in her thoughts. Soon Samantha would be healed up and out of there. She didn't know what to feel about that. She thought she should feel glad, that way she could get back to her life with her kids and trying to reconcile with her husband, but on the other hand she felt a twinge of pain and heart palpations thinking of Samantha leaving.
"Lauri...Lauri" I said a few more times.
Lauri had drifted off in her thoughts and hadn't heard me call her the first time. "Hmm...what were you saying Samantha." Lauri turned to face me on the couch. "I'm sorry I guess I was in my thoughts there."
"I was just asking if you wanted to put a movie in. Lauri are you okay?"
"Yeah, everything is fine Samantha. Just been a long day and tired a bit I guess. And with that great dinner of yours has totally relaxed me. Anyway, a movie would be great. Any particular one you want to put in. Not like I have a million to choose from." Lauri said jokingly pointing to the few hundred she had displayed in her entertainment center.
"How bout that one." I pointed to the movie called "Up close and Personal"
"Umm...sure Samantha that one would be fine." Lauri thought to herself, yeah that's what we need a romantic movie. Lauri put the movie into the vcr and leaned back on the couch.
We turned all the lights off, and both relaxed into the couch as the movie started. It was dark outside by now so the only light illuminating the room was the tv screen. Lauri had a big screen tv, that combined with the stereo sound and lights off would have made it to be a wonderful romantic evening if it wasn't for us only being friends that is.
Half way through the movie I felt my eyes fighting to stay open as I found myself so dangerously close to Lauri leaning into her. I snapped myself awake and straightened up again.
"Samantha you can lean into me if you want, if it would be more comfortable for you. Here, rest your head on my shoulder."
I wasn't going to argue with her, with the lights off and the effects of the room had on me made me want to relax into her, so I decided for tonight I would put my guard down, and I moved a little closer and adjusted myself leaning into her shoulder. I rested my head into her chest as I felt her arms casually wrap around me, holding me closer to her. I must admit it felt really comforting and nice to feel her close to me like that.
We both adjusted our bodies closer and into each other in silence as not to ruin this moment between us, and then we watched the rest of the movie cuddled in each other's arms. I soon found sleep upon me as we both drifted off to sleep on the couch.
I don't know how much time had gone by, but I felt Lauri move a little.
"Samantha, Samantha." I heard Lauri whisper in my ear. "Come on sweetie I think we should go up stairs."
"Hmmm...what did you say Lauri?" I said groggily.
"Samantha," Lauri said softly into my ears. "It's almost 1am, we both must of fallen asleep down here. How bout we head up, since I need to be up early for work. Here, let me help you up."
Lauri got up and help pulled me up from the couch. I grabbed my crutch and we both slowly made our way up the stairs half asleep. We both climbed into bed in silence, and made our way into each other's arms as we both fell off to sleep.
Next thing I remember was that damn alarm going off at 5am again. "Damn that alarm!" I yelled out as I put the pillow over my head to muffle out the sound.
I heard Lauri laugh in the background as I said that.
"You know Lauri, why do you have to get up so damn early for work when clinic doesn't even start till 9am?"
"Ah...but your forgetting Samantha I'm a teacher, we have other jobs as well to do, we have to be there way before the students do to get everything ready and so much more."
"Yeah, I know Lauri. I'm just being a pill here. As you can tell I'm definitely not a morning person." I said light heartedly. "That's alright Samantha, if I didn't have to be up so early for work I would be sleeping in as well with you." She said smiling.
"How are you feeling Lauri, are you tired since we didn't come up till late last night."
"No, actually I feel okay. Here why don't you sleep in and I'll leave a hot fresh pot of coffee on for you when you come on down later. I'll set the timer on it. Well I better go get moving here and finish getting ready. You have a nice morning Samantha and I'll see you at lunch...okay?" Lauri leaned over the bed and quickly kissed me on the cheek.
"Okay, Lauri. I'll see you later. Have a good day." I heard Lauri walk out of the room as I closed my eyes and fell back to sleep.
After a few hours I was up and getting ready. I made my way down the stairs and had a cup of coffee. I wasn't sure when I would tell Lauri I was leaving, and that I had the doctor's appointment on monday. I was pretty much able to take care of myself now, so I knew it was time for me to move out, but I was afraid to leave. I would miss her greatly. I knew that once I would tell her about my doctors appointment on monday that I would have to soon leave cause there would be no more excuses for me to stay on any longer.
It saddened me that I would have to go. Maybe it would be best for me to tell her on monday, that way I won't ruin the time we have now together. It had been so nice cuddling with her the night before, and I just wanted a little more time with her.
Lunch had come and gone. Lauri had come home and we ate some lunch and talked general things about the day. I cooked dinner for her all week. The week went pretty smoothly. Our normal routine of her coming home for lunch, and after supper we would both retire to the couch and watch a movie cuddled into each other. A couple of times we even played a hand or two at cards, but this time the truth and dare game was definitely left out. This time I made sure both our clothes stayed on.
The week had gone by so quickly and we had grown close again and enjoying each other's company and time spent together. She had touched my heart in a way that no one had done before. She truly had become a very close and dear friend to me, and it saddened me that we couldn't have more than that. I never let it go beyond cuddling with her and I, even though at times I felt Lauri wanted to kiss me and she would lean into me to kiss me but I would pull away or turn my face from her.
She never got upset or asked me why, and with me leaving on the monday I just didn't want to go through the emotional hurt of loving her and then having to leave so I pushed her away and held my emotional walls up, and would only allow it to go no further than the cuddling. I wanted more with her, but I knew it would never be, so I had to keep my own feelings in check. I knew she was still in love with her husband and was confused with this situation with her and I, and her feelings for me, so I couldn't let myself get on that roller coaster again with her, though it was such a struggle for me every day to maintain that front of pushing her away and not wanting her. I wanted to reach out to her and to love her, but I just knew I couldn't.
We spent a wonderful weekend together, playing around with each other, joking, and just really enjoying ourselves. Lauri cooked some meals, and I cooked my homemade chilli for her over the weekend. We ordered take out as well,and just enjoyed each other's company over the weekend. But the ominous monday was soon approaching and my nerves started to act up.
Sunday evening found us both on the couch again relaxing with each other, but tonight I was quiet in my thoughts about how tomorrow would go.
"Samantha, your awlfully quiet over there. Is everything okay?"
"Yeah, I'm fine Lauri. I was just thinking how great of a week it has been with you, and I'm just going to miss that I guess when I leave, so I guess that is on my mind a bit."
"Oh, I see." Lauri said quietly. "She still wants to leave," Lauri thought to herself saddly. Well I guess I haven't given her any indication that I want her here longer but how can I tell her that I want more with her. I guess I don't blame her for pulling away the past few times when I have tried to get close to her, considering what I did to her the last time. She's probably scared and confused about how I will react again, and then of course my husband. Damn, I wish I knew myself how I could straighten all of this out, but I do know onething, is that I love her and don't want to lose her. I should tell her this, but after what happened the last time, I'm sure she would be skeptical of my feelings for her, and I don't blame her for feeling that way. I just don't know what to say to her." Lauri sat there in her thoughts as well.
We both sat on the couch in silence in our own thoughts. I didn't know how to tell her about tomorrow so I will tell her then. I just want to enjoy this last night with her. I snapped out of my thoughts and leaned into Lauri a little more. She looked down at me and gave me a soft smile and pulled me into her more wrapping her arms around me. We cuddled in each others arms the rest of the evening quietly enjoying our time together. My heart so heavy and so sad as I knew this would be the last night I would feel her in my arms. I loved her so, if only she felt the same way, if only she would tell me to stay with her. Well if only a lot of things were different, but unfortunately they were not.
To be continued...
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