"My
Dearest Phillip,
Your
love means the world to me. You are the only trustworthy and honorable
man I have ever known and I feel blessed that you are mine. You are
wonderful in so many ways, but the fact that you are faithful, a "one
woman man", is the thing that I appreciate most about you. One
of the other major reasons that I love you so deeply is that you really
do understand me and my needs.
Do you
remember how hard it was when you had to go to Taiwan about six months
ago? Well, my sweetheart, I did some soul searching then, because I
already knew that you were the man that I wanted to spend the rest of
my life with. I wanted for our relationship to last forever. I could
not bear the thought of anyone else ever coming between us. So, I thought
about you and the things that you need as a man. I wanted to fulfill
the fantasies that you must have, but because of your honor, would never
fulfill in the wrong way.
So I
sent you Toi, and Asia and last night, Charisma. These three very diverse
women I wanted you to have, so that you would never have to be curious
or be concerned that you have "missed" something.
At that
time, my sweet Phillip, I had to be honest with myself about my needs
as well. You know me. I am what I am, and you are the only man who has
ever truly understood that. I could never afford to lose you. But if
I were ever unfaithful to you, I knew that I would. Still, you know
my nature. I have to have new sexual adventures.
Excitement
is what I crave.
I found
the way, my darling, to handle both of our needs. I thought about our
wedding day, our perfect wedding day, and I reflected upon what the
minister had said. It's funny, I was concentrating on our wedding vows
so intensely that I never really listened to what the minister was saying.
But that day, the day I decided that I would do anything in my power
to help keep us together, the words of the minister came flooding back
into my mind. We were married, he said, "In the name of God the
Father, God the Son, and God the Holy Ghost, the Blessed Trinity."
Those words kept ringing in my ears.
In this
way, we were bound together as man and wife. I wondered if... was it
possible that...and then it hit me. Yes, that was it! I would do it!
That was the way to handle both of our needs.
And,
my darling, you were with me every step of the way. Though I never revealed
my plan to you, you caught on quickly and you've never missed a beat.
You never questioned my excuses for having to be away from you, no matter
how lame the excuse was. You know that I don't have an "Aunt Jenny"
that lives in Elmsford, but you didn't say a word in protest. You knew
that I couldn't be visiting my mother for the weekend.
You
went to my mother's funeral with me last year. Sometimes, I just couldn't
think quickly enough to come up with a good excuse on the spur of the
moment, still, you didn't question me. You trusted me. But, my sweetheart,
the thing that I appreciate even more is this. No matter how well I
researched the role, no matter how good my makeup was, or how perfect
my accent or costume, you knew from the start each time that it was
me.
But
my wonderful Phillip, you never said a word. You played along with my
game. You knew exactly what I needed and that's what you gave me each
time. From the bottom of my heart, thank you, baby. Thank you.
You
will always have me, my darling; thank you for letting me become your
personal Trinity. Of course, Toi, Asia and Charisma will eventually
give way, one by one, to three others. After all, my dearest, no affair
can last forever. For you, for us both, there will always be someone
new.
Now
you Phillip, the love of my life, come home to me right away. I have
been preparing something special for you all night. We are going to
have some kind of day today, sweetheart. I hope that you got plenty
of rest.
Love
forever,
Nikki"