sincerely_helene
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We have had several threads about general depression, however, I think that what I suffer from is slightly different: letting go of the past. I'm devoting this particular thread to those who may be able to relate, in hopes that they feel comfortable enough to share in their experiance. Sometimes just venting helps.
It's not that anything overly traumatic ever took place in my childhood, but in a way that frusterates me more because I can't make people understand why my thoughts prevent me from moving forward.
Some days, I will wake up and just not be able to focus on anything or anyone simply because I'm worried about a particular instance that occured when I was 12, or maybe a situation that took place with an ex. Some of the time, I don't even know for sure that anything bad actually happened, but my mind will suddenly trigger the idea that, hey, maybe this person thought or said such and such about me.
Through the years, I have been on a number of medications and offered several labels to help Docs reason why my brain works this way. I'm otherwise a very happy and well adjusted person, but when I get into one of my slumps I crash hard. Somewhere within the course of minutes, hours, or even weeks, when I'm finally confident I have asessed the situation from every possible angle, I am then free to proceed with life as normal again.
I understand it's very common to reflect on the past, but I have been told the degree to which I do this is far from the norm. I have lost several jobs over it, and at its worst not been able to answer the phone or leave the house. There are even times where I will have forgotten if I ever finished rationalizing a particular occurance, and then the thought process starts all over again. I can go for days without eating, I'm so distracted.
This started happening when I hit my early teens, and has progressively gotten worse. Now I'm sometimes up to 2 or 3 thoughts hitting me all at once. Anyone else experiance something similar? If so, how do you deal with it?
I warned you this was a serious thread.
It's not that anything overly traumatic ever took place in my childhood, but in a way that frusterates me more because I can't make people understand why my thoughts prevent me from moving forward.
Some days, I will wake up and just not be able to focus on anything or anyone simply because I'm worried about a particular instance that occured when I was 12, or maybe a situation that took place with an ex. Some of the time, I don't even know for sure that anything bad actually happened, but my mind will suddenly trigger the idea that, hey, maybe this person thought or said such and such about me.
Through the years, I have been on a number of medications and offered several labels to help Docs reason why my brain works this way. I'm otherwise a very happy and well adjusted person, but when I get into one of my slumps I crash hard. Somewhere within the course of minutes, hours, or even weeks, when I'm finally confident I have asessed the situation from every possible angle, I am then free to proceed with life as normal again.
I understand it's very common to reflect on the past, but I have been told the degree to which I do this is far from the norm. I have lost several jobs over it, and at its worst not been able to answer the phone or leave the house. There are even times where I will have forgotten if I ever finished rationalizing a particular occurance, and then the thought process starts all over again. I can go for days without eating, I'm so distracted.
This started happening when I hit my early teens, and has progressively gotten worse. Now I'm sometimes up to 2 or 3 thoughts hitting me all at once. Anyone else experiance something similar? If so, how do you deal with it?
I warned you this was a serious thread.