madmanmike
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i have been with my girl almost 8 months now. i love her and i know she loves me. she has told me so and she has proved it in my eyes.
over the past 8 months she has gone from being quite and reserved and almost hermit like to trying new things with me. she never went out to movies before. she never ate at a restaurant like outback where they bring the food to you. she never has been very sensual with a person before me.(i am her 2nd lover)
but for every step forward we take it seems to make another part of her turn back. she says i make her happy when im around. but i feel like when she gets depressed it may be my fault for exposing her to these things she never did before because of either her reluctance or that she feels she cant do those things when she isnt around or some other reason.
she has depression medication that she takes when it hits her. she has always had it since she was a child. its nothing that i gave her. and she says since we have been together it has been less and less. but when it does happen it hurts me. her face turns blank and it makes me think i did something to offend her or make her angry.
she has opened up to me tremendously. the last barrier we broke was 2 weeks ago when she told me she loved me. she would write it down before or nod if i asked her but wouldnt say it. but after i had the worst most stressful day in my life she gave me a ride to work and saw me stressed out and ready to just fall down from it. when i told her good bye from the car she told me she loved me. the only thing that kept me from saying it back is i would have started to cry. i told her this a week later on a card with some roses on her bed she found when she got off of work.
but despite all of this i sometimes dont know how to make her happy. i refuse to leave her because of something like this. but it seams like everytime i make her happy for a day its just a drop of depression waiting to make her come back down.
if anyone has experience please give me some advice. sorry for the rambling but i just wrote it as it came to me.
over the past 8 months she has gone from being quite and reserved and almost hermit like to trying new things with me. she never went out to movies before. she never ate at a restaurant like outback where they bring the food to you. she never has been very sensual with a person before me.(i am her 2nd lover)
but for every step forward we take it seems to make another part of her turn back. she says i make her happy when im around. but i feel like when she gets depressed it may be my fault for exposing her to these things she never did before because of either her reluctance or that she feels she cant do those things when she isnt around or some other reason.
she has depression medication that she takes when it hits her. she has always had it since she was a child. its nothing that i gave her. and she says since we have been together it has been less and less. but when it does happen it hurts me. her face turns blank and it makes me think i did something to offend her or make her angry.
she has opened up to me tremendously. the last barrier we broke was 2 weeks ago when she told me she loved me. she would write it down before or nod if i asked her but wouldnt say it. but after i had the worst most stressful day in my life she gave me a ride to work and saw me stressed out and ready to just fall down from it. when i told her good bye from the car she told me she loved me. the only thing that kept me from saying it back is i would have started to cry. i told her this a week later on a card with some roses on her bed she found when she got off of work.
but despite all of this i sometimes dont know how to make her happy. i refuse to leave her because of something like this. but it seams like everytime i make her happy for a day its just a drop of depression waiting to make her come back down.
if anyone has experience please give me some advice. sorry for the rambling but i just wrote it as it came to me.