9 More Minutes

A light slap and I go back
To the dreams
To the darkness
To the unreality of my mind
There is 9 minutes
Then I might awaken briefly
And decide to plunge again.
With another smack
My fingertips graze my companion
It is my choice
To dive back under
To satiate my brain.
With 9 more restless moments
Time is not a friend
He pulls at me
Tugging at my core
Bending and breaking my spirit
Until I can't take no more.
9 more minutes
Just once again
Give it to me
I need it, I crave it
I can't be ignored
Until time ends me
Then I will rise
Curse the heavens
Proclaim the injustice
That I was robbed
That I was denied
I need more time
I need 9 more minutes.
Who is to blame?
Why was it created?
There is no reason
In the madness of this
The addiction that comes
Like a hug of warmth
Drugged for the moment
Then the cold reality hits
There is no sanctuary
There is only the snooze
The button from Hell.
9 more minutes
With one eye open
I aim at thee
Friend one moment
Foe the next
I hate what I love
Like an itch to scratch
Annoying but needed
I know I will be back
Hitting the clock again
For 9 more minutes.