a biblical journey

I'm sure I don't understand. We started out side-by-side
but that's not the case, today, despite my efforts.
All I have wanted to do is to be able to help you.
But you have to be willing to receive that help.
And to try to help yourself. Your worth every attempt.
I don't know if you are looking for love from someone
or to give love to someone or for none, at all.
I know that I already hurt you and that
nothing could make up for that. But your addiction hurts me, right back.
And from that we will go forward. The separation complete.
And lay together and learn of each other, again.
I will want to kiss the back of your neck
and to feel free every part of your body.
To lay beside you and to play with your nipples while you drift off to sleep.
To eat your pussy like the fruit that it is
and to ignore the snakes that lay in the grass, watching.
Then to watch you and to wait while you roam in the desert,
looking for something that you will never find.
Because it is in your heart, inside you.
You already know all of the answers.
You have given them to me, at times.
The battle will continue, the darkness will be constant.
But you will always be able to come back to this place
and find your peace and quiet. To rest. To know yourself.
you have always said to me, "if you're waiting on me,
you are backing up." I've been walking backwards
for a while, now. It is time to let go.