A Hard Fall (Adios)

Hard yes

But, hey,

I won't have a scratched back anymore
From leaning against your wall
Until I fell sliding down in tears

I won't expect your meaningless text
Every second of the day, checking and checking and checking

I won't imagine you saying the same words to others
Making the same movements; God, not the same movements...

I won't drift away with watered eyes even though I am surrounded with friends

I won't drop everything on the floor just to reply faster and cancel outings just to kiss you

Hey,

I won't have you whisper to me your desires
I won't have the control of your orgasm
I won't have to watch what to wear
I won't have to send you poems
I won't have to stay awake at night
I won't have the strength to change my life

I fell hard for you
And I am falling hard without you
And I would start all over

Hey,

You know what?

You could have made me fall even harder