A heart dies slowly

Looking to heaven I scream in pain.
They can't hear me I scream in vain.
A heart dies slowly it hurts so bad.
Been starving for you I feel so sad.

So beautiful,elusive and never to be mine.
Tears run down my face in a straight line.
To drown this heart and feel no more.
Flow away from me to some distant shore.

I see it all around me so close to touch.
Why even try you've hurt me too much.
Don't feel sorry I know you can see.
That you created this horror,this monster,this me.