A Lifetime

I didn't take into account
his multi-faceted smile
that sparkled like a crystal
dangling from a rear-view;
it blinded me.
I didn't see the signs,
not right away,
and even when I did
compulsively I went full speed ahead.
I saw him swerve
and dodge to the right
when it was the other way
I longed for him to go.
There were times we collided
breathless and gentle
and in those moments I was sure
he could love me.
But what he said
and what he did
were a paradox for me
to puzzle over.
Well, I have a lifetime
without him.