A Moment

i am quiet
praying,wishing
i could erase
my stupid past.

that ounce of doubt
in your mind -
breaks my heart
makes me wonder

am i good enough?
have i ruined us
before we had a chance
to begin?

can't blame you
i guess
mistakes made then
affecting us now

wanting, needing you
wrenches at me
aching, terrified
you might go

my gut clenches
blood pressure rises
i curl up
and hide my head...

this too will pass
i know you love me
despite myself -
stupid past and all.