A New Beginning

My first thought is always the worst one.
It is natural for me to feel sorrow, to grieve.
Who would blame me for never trying again?
After all, I did fail.

Yes, I failed.

Logical conclusions lead me to think I did.
Linear thinking tells me this was my destination.
My mind verifies all of my neurotic fears.
My heart on the other hand…..

Did I really fail?

Why is my next thought one of freedom?
How come something inside of me is happy?
Where is this sense of hope coming from?
My smile shines through my tears.

I don’t think I did.

There is a war waging in my body.
My mind and my heart duel for control.
The pain inside is exhilarating as it evolves.
As I let go of my failure, I see new opportunity.

A new beginning.